Living Nightmare

My hands are crossed,
Just like my brain,
Twisted in deep thought,
Craving your rain,
So fucking sick of this hell,
Searching for someone to tell,
Once upon a time i thought i had you,
But you were gone before i knew,
I travel deep into my brain,
Dreaming 'bout the pounding rain,
Catching a ride on a midnight train,
To take me away from my self invented pain,
So afraid to love you
Even more afriad to lose you
The dense forest- deception and deciet
Now so lost, accepting defeat
Through the trees toward the abyss
the path filled with randomness
unscripted like spontaenously combusting love
coming to the end you give me a shove
falling like a stone- or feather
i thought we belonged together
the blood from my eyes flowing
my brain by itself glowing
the pain in my eyes is a facade for truth.