WHY?

Why?

You had your life to live it was the start of things for you.
Like you always did that day you felt ill you just carried on as normal as possible. Everyone worried about you as this was something everyone who new you had an idea it was serious, you finally asked to see the doctor again something you very rarely did when the doctor did see you he just brushed it aside and said take these pain killers you would not argue even though you did know something was very wrong with you.
A few days had passed and you were much worse and could stand the pain no longer when you were asked by your son to go to the hospital you went and again you was just given strong pain relief and told it was migraine after a few hours they sent you home.
Day by day you got sicker and weaker you could not move it was so bad we all knew this was not our sister we new as you were never one to be still.

Annette I was devastated to get the call to say Annette needs you she is ill I knew straight away what ever it was it had to be a lot more serious than people who knew you could imagine.

That day we took you to the hospital for the results of some test the doctors had finally run on you and we sat in that small room the doctor came in looking very nervous and 2 women came in with him I saw the look you passed me and I felt we had both thought the same thing at that time this was the special nurses for terminal ill patients Annette I wanted to scream that morning but I know I had to be strong for you I could not believe this was going to the end so quick, the doctor told you you had brain cancer and there was nothing they could do you just sat there so straight upright and said to me ok we are going to get a coffee now like the doctor was invisible I still to this day don’t know how I stayed as strong in front of you.
How brave you was I will never ever forget Annette my sweet sister you wanted to arrange your funeral and make sure what clothes you would wear, you wanted to make sure Deb our youngest sister was going to be ok and not left alone after your time came, I have never known anyone as strong as you was and I think of you every day and think how in the world did Annette get through them last few months I know the pain was so bad for you and when the time came that you was not able to say what you wanted to be given you had already asked me to make sure your wishes was kept and I agreed but that day you was in so much pain you was screaming for help I called the doctor and nurses they came to the house and put you on those pumps to ease the pain a little and after a few days you seemed to buck up a little bit then again in the evening you was back down again Annette my lovely sweet sister I wish I could have done more to help I was so sorry that I had to be the one to agree to you having the medication you never wanted and it was so hard as I had all the family saying do this, do that, some did not agree but that was all out of my hands and I am so sorry I just was powerless to help anymore.
I stayed with you all the time I made sure you was comfortable at all times but the saddest part was having to watch you go it still breaks my heart.
I am so grateful to have had you as my sister and so grateful you still made us laugh even when inside you must have been so afraid you was a shining light to us all.
You were and still are our inspiration.
Geoff was also as heartbroken for you and for me seeing how hard it was watching you, if I could have changed anything I promise you Annette I would have I miss you so much sis and love you dearly.
Why if there is a god did this happen?
Your loving sister Chris xxxxxxx