Dream

{:cpink}Ever since I was a young child I always said when I grow up I will go to Switzerland where the air is crisp and cold the fresh snow is on the slopes the snow glistens like twinkling stars, oh what a dream come true if I had the chance to go I would have done so years ago.

You see back then when just a child I had no idea I would be so debilitated that I could not travel I have suffered with agoraphobia many years to many to count, I cant even go shopping in the car with my wonderful supportive hubby who is my true love, as far as I get is in my back garden in the summer I sit quietly and listen to all the beautiful bird sounds and I see some rare birds as we live next to a nature park so they sometimes come and feed in our garden, yes its lovely to see but that dream is always there in my mind oh why do I have to put up with the phobia? Why can’t I get over it? It was 12 years before I asked a doctor what was wrong and the doctor said I had agoraphobia but could get help when I finally did see someone I had suffered this silent prison I call it for over 20 years and I have always worked my way around the problem when I had my beautiful son and my beautiful daughter I hid it well, I would look after friends children in the home while in return they would drop my children at school just across the road from me.
My dream will never go and it’s no bad thing we all need dreams. I have my beautiful grandchildren and my nephew who I care for who needs more love than is humanly possible.
One day it would be nice for my dream to come true ha I would need a miracle if it was to happen.

Oh well back to my dream of Snow, Crisp Air, Stars twinkling and the glistening of the snow, ok now I wake up and reality hits me.

So many people have told me I was put on this earth for a reason that reason being to protect as many children as I can.
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