It still Haunts me Now

Trust me; I won't forget what they have done. Details do not matter. I have Tears in my eyes. I know sometimes how hard it is to cope. Every time I see them I pretend I am fine, when really I want to break down and cry.

That Wednesday still remains on my mind and it was only last year when it happened. Will I ever find out why it was me? I should be used to writing statements whenever something happened, but still it will never remove from my mind. I just cannot escape the memories of last year. When will the stream of tears stop running? I cannot walk away as pain keeps following me.

Another night and it's happened yet again. I made my way through. So many dreams left in my mind. In the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear their names. Should I have told my parents or my tutor? What if I did, would they have come after me? When will it stop?

I sit here every night crying myself to sleep. Why me? What have I ever done? Facing them was always hard. When you look at me, tell me what do you see?

I walk alone, without any friends beside me. I closed my eyes pretending I can't see what is going on. When will they stop? They are laughing. The pain is just too much. Tears are frequently streaming down my face.

I was the quiet one in my year. I would go to school everyday afraid of what would happen. The shouting got louder and there was no where I could have gone to get away. Maybe if I tried going somewhere far away. Would I be able to get away from them horrible visions that strike my mind? When will it stop?

I got moved classes last year because it got so bad but will it totally end all the pain? No! This time my confidence is totally shattered. I used to be loud and quite willful child but after starting college I became less trusting and more introverted.

I keep thinking that they are behind me, waiting. Think there are waiting for that one chance to hurt me like they did last year. They did not need to kick me until I fell to the ground. Calling, laughing and screaming at me were enough to wound me. When will it ever stop? I heard a voice and I thought they were there.

Now I try to look in the future. Thinking about whenever things will look up for me. I suppose I am lucky if things are ok. I do not need the best education, well-paid job and loads of money or to be popular at college. I will be happy if those bullies keep away and let me live my life.