Saying Goodbye

Saying Goodbye

Saying goodbye was so hard this time. I wanted to hold you forever. I am not sure if it was because deep down in my heart I know that it is the last time I will ever see you. Feeling your arms around me, tightening as if you did not want me to go, will remain in my heart for the rest of my days.

I loved seeing you again. During our days apart, I know that we have both grown. Some areas for the better. Being with you though brought back that teenage girl inside of me dying for your touch and attention. The fact that you remember the time you spent with me was so touching. Much appreciated too.

You opened up a side of me that no one could ever touch. Friends see it within me. I have heard that home is where the heart is. Guess I am not living at home. I have realized that my heart is with you. It has been and I think it always will be.

Seeing you again should have eased some of my desires and dreams of you. However, all it did was increase them. I find myself wondering what you are doing now. Are you sleeping? Are you having dinner? A whole lot of questions are running through my head.

If only... If only we had more time, if only you and I lived closer to each other. Would things be different? Would you and I be closer? Would I still be thinking of you with every step that I take?

I do not want to be away from you for as long as I was. I miss you and wish you all the best in your endeavors. I can only dream and hope that you will have the occasional thought of me. I am not ready to say goodbye to you as of yet so I will only leave it as I have so far, until we meet again.