my poems

Me and you

First there was me,
Then there was you,
You looked my way,
With those eyes so blue,
First we were friends,
Then a kiss was blew,
A giggle was shared,
With your smile so true,
First we were shy,
Then to control we did try,
We thought we were in love,
Kiss after kiss and hug after hug,
First we were so happy,
Then the happiness faded away,
We were left with hoping,
That we could sort it out someday,
First there were just tears,
Then bruises came over the years,
We tried to make it work,
We prayed we could make it work,
First there was excitement at something new,
Then there were too may expectations placed upon you,
We both couldn't understand,
Couldn't even bare to hold your hand,
First the kisses were a treat,
Then they became bitter sweet,
We progressed the physical too quickly,
Over compensating for the emotional side which had gone,
First I thought I was lucky to have you,
Then I thought I deserved a love that was true,
I was sick of you and her always together,
Him and me had known each other forever,
First everything was bliss,
Then we barely even shared a kiss,
I was so down,
You couldn't take away my frown,
Something tipped me over,
Can't remember what we argued over,
First we said we'd sort it out,
Then it just didn't work out,
I thought when I went away,
She would take advantage and you would go astray,
It drove me so insane,
That I was the one to play,
First I told myself it wasn't a big deal,
Then when I got home I felt a fool,
I know I’d needed the attention,
But I was too ridden with guilt to carry on,
First I thought maybe I could live a lie,
Then I knew when you came in sight,
So much had happened and there was no spark,
Failure and grief I had to say goodbye,
First I wasn't sure if I’d go through with it,
Then I had my mind dead set on it,
We sat on the bench together,
My hands were shaking like they'd continue forever,
First I began to tell him that things weren't working out,
Then I decided that’s all I’d say and so I shut my mouth,
He was so understanding and said he felt the same,
We parted with a giggle and a hug upon that day,
First he walked off his way,
Then I walked off mine,
I knew that I would still miss,
Him not being mine,
First there was me,
Then there was you,
From being one we were again two,
There was me and you,
After such a long time all that was left,
Was me,
And then you,





Wonder

Wonder what he told her,
Wonder what she said,
Wonder if the same thoughts,
Were running through my head,
Wonder if she truly understood,
In a way I never could,

Wonder how she reacted,
Wonder if she always knew,
Wonder if it all seemed,
So real and precisely true,
Wonder if it made her see,
Something that was so unclear to me,

Wonder if he worried,
Wonder if it was all cool,
Wonder if he was scared,
She'd tell the whole school,
Wonder if it was easy to say,
Or getting more awkward by the day,

Wonder why he barely trusted me,
Wished he'd told her instead,
Wonder how he could think,
I could possibly forget,
Wonder why it confuses me,
And intrigues me now I see,

Wonder why I now understand,
Wonder why I never did,
Wonder why I’ve always accepted,
Without an explanation like a kid,
Wonder if she felt this way,
Even from the very first day,

Wonder if he knows it hurts me,
Wonder if he ever could,
Wonder why it gives me a hope that isn't good,
Wonder if he trusts me now,
Or does he think I’m just a cow,
Like them,

Wonder why it makes us laugh,
Wonder why its funny,
Wonder if it bothered me,
The times I spent my money,
Wonder how I feel,
Now secrets have been revealed,

Wonder if he sticks a label on my head,
Wonder if to him I’m dead,
Wonder if he thinks I’ve changed,
To fit in and not be strange,
Wonder if he still cares,
Wonder if he ever stares,

Wonder if he truly knows,
Wonder if he does,
Wonder if he likes one,
More than the other one,
Wonder why it matters,
Feeling I’m mad as hatters,

Wonder if he knows he's cool,
Wonder if he knows what he's got,
Wonder if he'd ever think,
I could still think he's hot,
Wonder if it would make him laugh,
As it makes me laugh,

Wonder if I’ve grown at all,
Wonder if I’ve changed,
Wonder if my feelings,
Shall never be the same,
Wonder if I am,
Wonder If I can,

Wonder if I'm who I want,
Wonder If I have,
Wonder If I have become,
Just another Chav,
Wonder If I try too hard,
Or if this is really me,
Wonder why I can't see,
That he is lost from me,

Wonder why we lost paths,
Wonder how we will find,
Wonder why I strive for it,
The acceptance bit by bit,
Wonder if I'll lose myself,
Just like I lost him,

Wonder if he'll ever know,
Wonder if he will dismiss,
Wonder why I even write this,
His sexuality intrigues me,
Wonder if I ache for his kiss,
When I lost that a long time ago,

Wonder why I like it,
Wonder why she does too,
Wonder why we laugh,
When we know it's so wrong and untrue,
Wonder why it has to be,
That when I have him,
I don't want him for me,
Now I can't have him,
I want him,

Wonder why I will never fall,
Wonder if I will,
Wonder why I never want to,
Fall in love head over heels on that hill,

Wonder why I want him,
Wonder if I really do,
Wonder how wide my eyes will open,
Wonder if I'll crack,
Wonder why it makes me laugh,
Rippling through my body and back,
Wonder is she feels the same,
When the news for her came,

Wonder if I’ll ever fully say goodbye,
Wonder if I need to,
Wonder why he means so much to me,
First love felt true,
Wonder if it's okay,
Wonder if I’ll always feel this way,

Wonder if I am good enough,
Wonder if I can be,
Wonder if I'm a better person,
Because of him and me,
Wonder if it's all apart of life,
My blood, sweat, tears and strife,

Wonder if I blamed him,
Wonder if I blamed me,
Wonder why I could never see,
The hurt it caused to me,
Wonder why I sliced and cut,
Wonder why I hurt,

Wonder where all the anger,
Wonder where it came from,
Wonder how he broke my heart,
Without even knowing he did,
Wonder how I could leave him,
All those dreams and hopes,
I was just a kid,

Wonder why I dreamed him up,
Wonder why I did,
Wonder why I never got,
My fairytale like a rom-com vid,
Wonder if he wanted it too,
Not from me,
Not from her,
But from you,

Boy take care of him,
Treat him well and true,
Love him like I wish I could,
Like I tried to do,
Wonder if you will,
Wonder if he'll treat you differently,
Like he treat no girl,
Wonder if he's meant for you,,
Wonder if your love is true,
Like the fairytale I dreamed of,
Hoped and wished of,
Let it come true,
If it can't for me,
Then let it come true for him and for you,
Wonder if it will,
For him and for you,





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