Memory Remains

Memories of time gone for good,

Give anything to fix it, if I could.

Hard to imagine something so perfect can fall apart,

Even harder to know, I broke her heart.

Longing to go back to the past,

Wanting so badly to make it last.

Try to sleep, but sleep won't come,

Oh my god, what have I done?

My heart shattered with noone to blame,

My head hung low in misery and shame.

She's so far away now, yet still I see her here,

Thinking of ~GoOd TiMeS~, brings me tears.

Find it so hard to face the reality,

That her and I will never be.

The pictures I have, help ease it a bit,

Until I start crying, as here I sit.

Now it's all gone, the dream is shattered,

I should have done it right, if she truely mattered.

These wounds may heal, with given time,

But I'll always be haunted with memories of my crime.

I hurt her, again and again, and this I regret,

Now I fear, she'll also forget,

That I'm not all bad,

That it wasn't always so sad.

Please god let me go back and make it right,

Right back to that very first night.

I'll wish for this, everynight, although in vain,

The cuts will heal, but the memory remains.

Left with nothing, so very alone,

Lost the bounce in my step, nothing but sorrow in my tone.

Now she'll go, do her thing, with out need for mending,

Someone else will enjoy, my happy ending.

I hold no grudge, for I did this to, all me,

I fucked it up, now I'll pay the fee.

I lost not a girlfriend, but a best friend,

And I'll regret it right until my end.

I'll pray and pray that she may forgive and let go,

But I don't deserve it, I deserve this pain so slow.

All I retain is memories, guilt and a hurt so deep,

That's grows and grows with each moment I weep.

I'd give anything to hold her one last time,

Even though I know, she'll never be mine.

If she's listening, I beg on one knee,

Please, Please, have mercy on me.

My pleas fall upon deaf ears,

But still I'll wait for years and years,

In hopes that forgiveness really is devine,

Maybe, all it takes, is a little time.

Where ever she goes, I hope she knows,

How sorry I am, and that I miss her so.

This love can never be replaced,

And my memories, can never be erased.