She & I

She watched me hurt,
I watched her lie,
She saw my young soul start to die,
I saw her smile,
As She watched me cry,
I watched my father leave my side,
 
She saw my deepest fears,
Of which I tried to hide,
She burned every last hope I had inside,
I felt sorrow in all I did,
She tried her best to stear me wrong,
As I tried my best to get along,
 
I felt like she put me to shame,
She looked at me with hardened eyes,
I winced everytime I heard her voice,
She spoke to me with such cold words,
 
I tried to love her, I really did,
She knows I know she never did,
I always wanted a normal life,
She basically insisted I lived with such strife,
 
I prayed so hard for God to end my life,
She said I was terribly wrong for wanting to be dead,
Buts its better,
Than to remember what she had said.