Mara

My heart aches for those should have beens
This sinking feeling I can't take much more of
I close my eyes, think of you, and my room spins
My head throbs in frustration considering your love
My heart only wants to believe what you say
Bitterness wells up inside me- come what may
*chorus*If you're waiting for me to cry
I'm waiting for you to turn your face
The weight of pain in my eyes
Is nothing you could help efface
From your side, I'm forced to run
Devotion and time to you I owe none
~*~
A clever faade for an outward appearance
Out of all those lies, is there one that's true
Exhausted is my capacity to show you patience
Have your feelings all eroded, gone with the thrill of the new
Where there once was self-assurance, now floods of doubt
I am left to convince myself that you I can live without
*chorus*If you're waiting for me to cry
I'm waiting for you to turn your face
The weight of pain in my eyes
Is nothing you could help efface
From your side, I'm forced to run
Devotion and time to you I owe none
~*~
Nothing will convince me to wait for you to transform
You just can't ask me to put my dreams on hold
Cross my fingers hoping for a character reform
No such things as belated fairytales, so I'm told
As much as it hurts, I can sever these ties
And spend endless time afterward forgetting your lies
I only want you to leave me alone
You can try to reach me, but I won't be home
The only voice you'll hear is before the message beep
But know I'm not listening, just pressing delete
*chorus*If you're waiting for me to cry
I'm waiting for you to turn your face
The weight of pain in my eyes
Is nothing you could help efface
From your side, I'm forced to run
Devotion and time to you I owe none
To you I owe none
I owe you none

*** The name Mara translates into the Hebrew word for bitter ***