Im writing this word for word with no plans |
I want to live that day again, the day i was alive just for one more time, make me see everything and feel everything for the last time. But the girl, she pulled me and pulled me and said "You no longer belong," she glared with her maroon eyes that seemed like the distant moon, her hair scattered everywhere, not that it mattered whether or not she was pretty to look at, everyone that saw her would wish they never did. She was the one who took me, she followed me to the park in an autumn day she walked behind me wearing a short pink dress that went up above her knees she wore a brown knit scarf, her hair was desame her eyes as cold as ever. She breathed upon my neck and my whole body felt numb, i fell to the ground she took my left foot and pulled me, i didn't feel complete panic i just felt...i felt like this has happened to me before, this was a continuation of something. She started singing that sounded like a little church choir twelve year old singer with that sweet a voice with a cold song "This is where everything ends, No turning back, time has struck, we have moved, You have said what you had meant to say, you're deal with me is done, Now life will have begun, but yours is now done, The train left without you, You are now nothing but a fog a forgotten memory a day grieved with love the next had moved one, the tears that washed the ocean now flowing away, This is you're last goodbye," Her voice seemed to echo, it almost made me cry, but it made me remember she took my tears away from me. She kept me inside a big brick room with one wooden door, inside was people who who was shivering and faceless, everything seemed gray, except the mirror. It was silver, it was the most precious thing that was inside the room, one faceless being crawled shivering to me and handed me the mirror, the faceless being was in a long old gown, she wore a torned veil on her head and her hair was the palest brown, she was wearing a gown, maybe her wedding day. she then tripped and scuttled back to a corner, i looked at the mirror i looked at it and saw me, my face...it was gone. I threw the mirror it broke into pieces, i shouted and screamed. and tried to cry, that was the time i knew she took my tears, my voice she hasn't yet, but i knew in my gut sooner or later she'd take away everything. i took a broken shard of glass from the floor and looked at it in my hand, i grasped a clump of hair from my head and pulled it and started cutting and slicing rapidly, my head stung my hand was bleeding and, i put the shard of broken glass in my pocket, then she appeared again and pulled me up "Such pretty hair," She smiled, i then realized we were inside another room a big room with people dancing, people in gowns and black suits, they seemed to not know we were there. "Know it looks more beautiful, pretty," she sounded insane she pushed me i fell not on the cold marble floor, but on wet grass, i stood up and saw i was in a vast plain land, there were a lot of birds with crowns and cows eating grass they were all white except the grass, it was richly green. I saw the edge, a cliff, i ran to it, looking back panting, before she comes back again. I stood on the edge, below i could see nothing, only an endless pit of nothing, She was standing in front of me a few feet away from me, she smiled and blew a kiss, i closed my eyes and let myself fall into...nothing...maybe it is nothing or maybe its everything else, i opened my eyes feeling the air swiftly pass between my fingers, i opened my eyes to see that it started raining, the world was crying for me and for everyone else, i was crying for the world. Now, i stand silently near the park, that's where she took me, i tag along with her, today she sits beside a little girl about four years old, the little girl looks up at her, she kisses the little girl's forehead and the little girl falls on the grass, she picked the little girl up and walked away, i watched her walking and thought "She isn't as bad as she seems" She did let me live more than i should. She made me see everything else i should before she let me go. That was nice of her, wasnt it? |