saying goodbye to my son |
Yesterday we sent junior to college. We took some of his stuff and helped him to settle down. However, he was eager to see us go. Guessed he was excited to settle down in his new surroundings and friends. Dad tried to help him more than necessary and I had to butt in and told him to leave junior alone. When it was time to leave, Dad asked him to join us for dinner. He did not want to go and eat with us... so, we had to leave him there. Part of us would prefer if he had eaten with us and we would feel better knowing that he had eaten, fed and rested....sigh, somehow, a parent will always be a parent.. when i went to uni those days, my parents did not even send me...i took the train and left home, just like that...no one to help me set up my stuff..i did not even have any stuff. have we spoilt our own kids? are we doing too much? sometimes, we tend to give him too much advice because we want to save him from making the mistakes that we did.... but i have to let him go...It's time to let him go and let God take over. Lord, the day you gave me this boy, i knew he was special he is so talented a mirror of both of us musically and mentally and it is difficult to let go and let you take over i miss him miss having him around and knowing that i could always count on him to come to my rescue yet i know that he is after all not entirely mine he is Yours and so, i am returning him to You Use him, Lord as you deem fit guide him in Your still small voice bring him to friends whom he can trust in his lonely times give him wisdom in tricky situations and most of all, teach him not to mind when we nag when we tend to linger a little longer than usual cos we miss him. |