Deconstruction

Diligently, I built these walls to keep you away
laughable now, you are long gone yet here I stay
stab of irony, surreal twist of fate
I would flee, but it may now be too late
to the floor, my chains are anchored tight
though it matters not, long ago I gave up the fight
solid and sturdy my prison walls are built
a constant reminder of my overbearing guilt
everywhere I look I have carved its name
a perpetual echo of my relentless shame
I dare not cover the brand you placed upon my body
so I will never lose sight of who you made me to be
I keep my pain, it makes me tangible in this place
without it, I'm afraid, I may not have a body or a face
for everything I am, I am alienated
a lonely loner, simply, unintentionally isolated
friendship, joy, and love are not welcome here
only paranoia, misery, and fear
in this place i am unable to accept a loving touch
instantly memories assault me, it's just too much
I try to fight with all I am to vanquish this fear
I claw and paw,yet am unable to wipe away the tear
you come to me now to speak of forgiveness
I bite my tongue, close my eyes, and I must confess
I will forgive you, though i do it for me
for hatred built this prison, so forgiving you sets me free