I was living only in my mind until I woke up and decided it is time to be "free". |
Iām sitting inside my room, in front of my closed window. I like to watch the night from inside. Even if my room wouldnāt have any walls Iām sure Iād feel exactly like now: Iād feel that there is something which separates me from the outside world. The real walls are inside me. They make me feel so distant. Iām trapped in my little imaginary room. I try to get closer to the real world and in the same time to remain in mine; so, with a great deal of courage, I open the window. Suddenly a breeze of warm air enters in to my room. Iāve just realized that I canāt live in two worlds. Although I am very scared, a part of me doesnāt want to close the window again. I say to myself that itās all right if I stay just a little bit with the window opened... After a while, under the effect of the serene moon I reach the conclusion that there arenāt many differences between the two āroomsā. I get closer to the window. I can feel the fresh night air running through my lungs. I reach with my hand a shadow of a branch that seemed to reach for me. The boundary between my worlds gets thinner and thinner. The walls are beginning to fall. But the real walls, the big onesā¦ the heavy brick walls are still there. I stay behind the window for hours. It felt as if I stayed there for a lifetime, or perhaps thatās what I actually didā¦ for an old life (time). In the morning, when the first ray of sun gently fell upon my face and woke me up while I was sleeping with my head on my window, I thought itās time to break away and I opened the door. Finally, I got out. Before I did anything else, I went to my window and watched my room. It was the first thing on my mind. I wanted to see how it looks āfrom the other sideā. And thus, I somehow I found myself again behind the same window but this time I was outside, living a whole new life. Time has passed since then and now, on complete daylight I see things more clear and I think that if I stayed in my imaginary locked room Iād bee freer then I am now, in my room... with the door opened. |