insane!!!

Its drizzling outside. With a leathery feel on my palms I slowly rose from the bed and walked to the window. He was lying next to the foot of the cot. The sledgehammer rested on the pillow. It was a pink pillow cover with small white lilies in paint , scattered on it. A sense of pride and accomplishment swept me away and i started jumping up and down on the ground. I was happy. Happy as a small girl who has just got rid of an ugly lizard wriggling on the wall of her bedroom from a few days. I was happy as bird that learnt to fly all by self. I was happy as a dry-cleaned shirt after a tumble wash. (Maybe not that funny). But i was freakingly laughing loudly. Suddenly i thought i saw the index finger move. To be sure i tread slowly across the room and picked up the hammer. I felt a sense of strength and as the blood rushed into my head i brought the hammer down on his head again. And again. And again.
Then all was quiet. As if nothing had happened.
I was happy again.