Last Thoughts of a Daughter

Last Thoughts of a Daughter

I am sorry
Please forgive me
I hope you understand
There was no other way
I had no other choice

The memories that hid for so long
Each time I close my eyes
A flood of uncontrollable emotions
Sins of the past revisited
Again and again unrelenting

I am a little girl again
Door locked and curtains closed
Calling me his little angel
His hands are guiltless ice
Numbing my soul forever

He was supposed to love me
Keep me safe and innocent
Buy me teddy bears
Tie ribbons in my hair
Teach me to drive later on

But instead of guiding me
He pulled me out of the light
And into the darkness
Before I ever had a chance
To feel how warm it could be there

Now there is only pain and loneliness
Lost innocence and crumbled trust
A hurricane without an eye
There are not even stars in this eternal night
To keep me company or illuminate my way

What could I do?
Who could I tell?
To shatter my world with accusations
Or to let his actions slowly tear it down around me
I had no choice but to escape

The pain is almost gone now
The blade has done its job well
I can see a light ahead of me
Can already feel its warm embrace
And my mind is free at last