Toremented Lies

Toremented Lies


I saw warmth in your green eyes,
Now they only remind me of your toremented lies.
Everyday that passes my heart is aching,
It's all your fault my heart is breaking.
You told me things were fine, they were okay,
But I knew they weren't much to my dismay.
I knew it hurt; I knew you were in pain,
I still cry, wanting it to be the same.

You hated your father and I did too,
I can still see the bruises he left on you.
He would yell and shout until you cried,
But the tears stopped when you found me to confide.
I was your comfort you once told me,
I was all you needed and I hoped you would see.
But it's too late, you are gone and I am broken,
Your suicidal thoughts went unspoken.

You stopped talking, you seemed dead,
I still can't imagine what was going through your head.
That's when they found you cold to the touch,
I had no idea you hurt that much.
A smile on your face a slit to your wrist,
You held the razor tight in your fist.
Your mother cried, so did your best friend,
He was the one who told me in the end.

I still remember hering you were gone,
I wanted to tell everyone that they were wrong.
How I wanted to show them that you were still here,
That you were at home, wearing that goofy leer.
But somehow I knew I was the one wrong,
I knew my friend was now and forever gone.
You scared my soul, you broke my heart,
Your death is still tearing me apart.

I couldn't help but cry night and day,
I still hear myself begging for you to stay.
My tears won't stop and I know exactly why,
It because I am uncertain and I pertain to cry.
I want to hear you just one more time,
So I know where you ended up is just fine.
I still want to see you, at least once more,
Just so I can stop the hurt I deplore.

I was the one who stopped your tears,
I was the one you came to when life brought new fears.
I was the one who comforted you when you cried,
I was the one who mourned your loss when you died.
I was your friend and you were mine,
Maybe that's why you tole me you were always fine.
I will miss you my firned,
I think everyone will miss you in the end.

R.I.P. Evan