Real Life Dreaming

everytime i turn off the light
and lay myself to sleep
it haunts me
like a sick disease
slipping under the covers
under my clothes
and into my body

it crawls through my veins
won't let me forget
dreams are no escape
i will find no comfort here
eyes wide open
fingers inching home
lips searching
your weight crushes me

it rips me open
and i bleed,
until my mind goes numb
blank and dumb
a child lost, in what
it shouldn't yet know
where is my paradise?
shut out this reality
imagine the flowers
and the blue sky
how the clouds look
when it rains
thrust

wake up to find
you were never there
it's just me and
my little nightmare