Self-destructive hero

Self-destruction in a cycle
But do you stop it?
No, you embrace it, empower it.
Do you like it?
Would you encourage it?
Of course you would.
You love the attention.
“Take pity on the lonely hero”
Is your motto.
“Make them the enemy, yes that’s what I’ll do!”
That’s what you say in your twisted mind.
But even now you’re doing it,
Saying words
Trying to sound missed up.
When really your life is simple
Except your life
Stop making it dramatic
You’re pathetic
Disgusting
Stop trying to play the “sob story”
You’re not that special.
You’re just a self-destructive kid
Trying to play the “lonely hero”
Well guess what kid…
You’re not that person.
You never were.
You’re just putting on a mask
Trying to be.

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I wrote this poem 3:00 in the morning after staying up all night