In those bad days

Nothing will ever be as important
As the time I spent with my sister.
Little insignificant complaints and issues
From other small minded people don’t matter.
This doesn’t affect me or who I am

I am a wonderful giving caring person.
I gave up my whole life to help my sister die
With dignity and joy.

The most uplifting, life changing event of my life.

That is what is important.

Not burning fires, making a mess, being cold, making bad Decisions;
Not making decisions at all, being confused, hurt and sad.
Those things,
Although hard,
Are insignificant in the grand scale.

In those bad days, I tell myself,

"I am a child of God and will always be taken care of.
I am now older than she was ever allowed to be.
I live each to the fullest
For her if nothing else."

I deserve the best of everything.
I deserve joy, love, gentleness and respect.
I won’t settle for anything else.
I will stay away from anyone or anything
That brings me down.

For her.