My Past Life

(Introduction)
Yo
I've felt a lot of pain and depression
Throughout my life
I want to take the time
To just explain it
Solumly

(Verse One)
Ay yo
There's so much pain
I've kept bottled up inside
I used to just let shit slide
I was so deep in depression
That the slightest bad comment about me
Would seep into my soul
I was never whole back then
I would cry
Ask why I had to live
Through this Hell
Well, sometimes I had hoped to die
'Cause you see
I've had a pain so deep
That it's almost hard to explain
But I'll be plain
And tell you my life has been fucked up
Since eleven

(Chorus)
My Past Life
Contained a pain so deep
It took me so long
Before I obtained happiness
I rap this crap
To release all my pain
Peacefully

(Verse Two)
Now
I would sometimes walk on the street
Makin' a beat
Just thinkin' of life
I have lived life
Without a proper father
He became such a bother
He would sit on his ass
Get fat
He's so bad
It's so sad
I'd walk on the street
Ready to scream
You couldn't dream
Of all the pain I kept bottled inside my soul
And every time it began to rain
I'd dispense of this pain peacefully
But my pain never became weak
You see
There was once this jolly girl
Named Holly
Who I had once went out with
But she had become a bitch
She would try to control me
When we broke up
It felt like she had parolled me
But she lasted in my soul
As a pain too deep to end
If my pain was a physical object
It'd be too strong to bend
I'd some times wish to be laid on my death bed
I wish I could've taken meds
But now I wonder
What is asunder
In this life of mine

(Chorus)
My Past Life
Contained a pain so deep
It took me so long
Before I obtained happiness
I rap this crap
To release all my pain
Peacefully

(Verse Three)
Now
Me bein' an MC
Is a way to relieve stress, you see
But so many have decided
To make my life a mess
Ever since they had discovered
I had wanted to rap
They've called me a poser
Called me a sick wit
Who could not spit
But I have proved them wrong
So many times
Crimes have been committed on me
My mental health had been degraded
My family has barely any wealth
The mony I get
I split with my honey
But I still can smell
The tears
Whoever hears
The echoes of my past
Will understand
That my life has been such a mess
Who would like to try to depress
Me once again?

(Chorus)
My Past Life
Contained a pain so deep
It took me so long
Before I obtained happiness
I rap this crap
To release all my pain
Peacefully

(Verse Four)
I'd like to take the time
To make a rhyme
About my father
You see
This fat ass man
Who thought he was the king
Has been such a bother
My father was nothing worthy of the title
He thought he was cool
But would drool over cars more
Then help me with my work
He made me work around the house
I don't know what was worse
And I'll explain it in this verse
Tryna finish homework
Or bein' forced to do his shit
He never showed any affection
He just looked in the other direction
I'd never be this way to my children
Well... if I had children
I'm just to young
I was brung up to be
A kind man
But in my mind
There is so much shit
That it makes it hard to be nice
But I might as well fight
To keep this world in a good state
I'd go to any Hood
And preach about the Lord
My depression is like an evil horde
So much pain
I have obtained
I've kept it bottled in too long
It was so wrong
But, hey
Now my life is lookin' bright
The clouds are gone
That shroud of darkness missin'
I'm cheerin'
Hearin' the Angel's bliss
I have Faith now
I love her so much
No one could ever take her away from me

(Outro)
Yeah,
That's my more depressing life
In my own words
Every verse that talks
'Bout my girl
Is totally comin' from my mind and heart
Faith, babe
If you're hearin' this track
Sit back and close your eyes
And keep thinkin' 'bout me
'Cause I'm thinkin' 'bout you
I love you, girl
Let's never split up again
I love you
You're my Angel
Yeah
A Rapper's Ambition
B. Rock
MC Sergeant Cartwright
Nightmare Entertainment
Underground
Peace out
And, Faith
I love you with all my heart, girl