She Lay There

She lay there,
not breathing.
Nothing seemed fair.

Not a thing she'd care.
Not a soul for a friend, who she'd tell a secret.
Not a friend to those who try.
Not now that's it's over.
And this has become.

Everyday she crys,
as if she had no-one at all.
Until she will die.
For when she looked at the sky,
it came unwailing below.
It seemed to hit her,
strong like her boyfriend used to,
but it was nothing but a fall.

In the grass,
nothing to love,
nothing but grass surrounding
her alone to wonder.

Looking up at the blue sky,
she wonders what would happen,
if she were to die.
Today, the next day, or never and forever.

The story of a heart.
Which has no meaning.
No thought.
Nothing she fought.

She'd lay there everyday,
wondering about the negative.
Negatives of the past
future,
and this day.

But not everything was negative,
as she looked in the past.
for one thing she shall remember.
The day when she left everything, and
everyone she cared about...alone.

She sees it clearly, it was no dream
No life to prepare for it's own.
And so...
She lay there,
not breathing.
Nothing seemed fair.
Nothing was deceiving.

-xxstarj