Listen to the silence

Why won’t you speak?
Try it – communicate
How many years now
I just stubbornly wait

Expecting a change
In the usual routine
But kids or TV
In the end intervene

I know it’s a risk
To open those doors
To let the walls crumble
To expose bleeding sores

You’ve watched as this bubble
I’ve lived in has burst
You’ve tried to be patient
When bad wasn’t worst

Yet here in this moment
I’m torn in my heart.
This battle that rages
Could tear us apart

Our love, and the life
Of the love we’ve shared
Destroyed in the flames
Of emotions bared

I know it’s been hard
To hear certain things
Amazed what heartache
With tequila brings

I can’t offer excuse
Why I waited so long
That a heart full of light
Now sings darker songs

It’s not that I forget
What we’ve meant to each other
I just can’t break this chain
This pain from “another”


And “another” isn’t one
No, the number is more
I acknowledge my demons
Then relock the door

I’m sorry for the anguish
You must feel inside
One minute I speak
The next seem to hide

You say I don’t want you
Yet that’s not the case
More that this contention
Just began to replace

All those warm, cozy feelings
I held onto so tight
A fantasy I nurtured
By day, and by night

I never imagined
All those years ago
Just how we evolve
As we change and grow

But can we survive
Over time find peace?
Through love, and love alone
Will the pain release?

A heart so numbed
From continuous ache
Is soon reinforced
So as not to break

How then, can we return
To what we once knew?
I’m not who I once was
And neither are you

Can the love we’ve nurtured
Continue to sustain
This foundation, now laid
Over rocky terrain?

Affirmed by devotion
And fed by desire
I hope we come through this
Strengthened through fire