The chill & discovery of me...

I don't know.

I don't know, but here I go, writing... doing, the unknown.

Breathing hard down my new path, been here, dreamt here but it didn't last.

It's a new life now dark and chilled but only when I second guess the will...
the will to be who I should have been,
the will to grow where the light shines in,
the will to see what I could be,
the will to complete the unseen dream.

To feel my way, to take the breath,
to dive right in and laugh with depth.
I notice now, this pain I've kept
has disappeared since I last wept.

So stuck, so stuck, I struggle to breathe,
so unfamiliar, so strange,
so unbelievably free!
I'm here, I'm here!
Breathe.... and release.

Release brings me clarity, freeing laughter from beneath,
so young, so childish as I stop to think.

I think of the chill, the fact that I'm here,
the travel, the road, the questionable route,
the tears, the longing, the moments of doubt.
with the pain in hand, I shout, I shout,
I shout with this focus and courage attained through drought.
I shout to the seemingly unsurmountable tops,
I shout to the bottoms and pitfalls without...
"without you I couldn't appreciate peace,
the peace of the glorious and wonderful release!"

Release of my heart and spirit set free,
released to discover the unseen me,
with the help of this growth that captured only ONE of the "We".

The "We", became I,
and love became life,
breath became hope and brought the unrecongnizable "I".

I, became me and who I wanted to be,
full of hope and good and joy and free!

Free to discover the extent of my being,
Free to be better then the desires of he...

I severed the ties & through the pain I traveled.
Arriving in crystal clear cool, deep waters.
I swam and cried,  "JOY" deep inside,
but showed only curiosity and calm to unsuspecting eyes.

I thank this new day and wish it to be, owed to the glory of beautiful me.

Dedicated to:
my snorkel in Kona.