Hallucinations On A Black Canvas

Destroying me,
These rotting eyes,
All I'll never be,
All that I despise,
I commend to thee,
Deathly visions,
All that I see,
Breathing slowly,
Hyperventilate,
These fears,
All that I hate,
All that I hear,
Distorted by fear,
Sinking into soil,
Melting my body,
My tears begin to boil,
Let my pain not burden your soul,
I've cause this,
I'm no longer whole,
With this destruction,
I'm in a ladderless hole,
Sheilded from the new winds that may blow,
Will I die or live again?
Even I may never know.