Under the shade

I was alone with my own blue thoughts,
with my feelings,
with my mind.
I didn't wish a company of any kind.
The last thing I needed was judging words,
they really stroke me and my nerves.
I wanted a peace of heaven,
a calm moment in some level,
without any shades of worry.

How I longed for understanding,
a gentle smile, and a bit of caring,
but it was too much to ask,
so I must remain behind my mask,
and stay alone with my blue thoughts.