what to do

it's hard to make life decision when it doesn't only affect yourself.  When I was younger before I had children it was difficult to make decisions now it is really difficult.  I can't just think about how things will affect me and me alone. I now have two small boys that I am responsible for and I often wonder am I making the right choices for all of us? It is a question I ask myself all the time. I'm sure that I am not alone in this. I ask myself am I making the right choice by staying here in this house? Yes! NO! I really don't know! I think in my heart that it is the best for all of us well maybe not all of us.  It's best for the boys to be with their father he loves them.  It is not best for me to be here. So what do you do? I love my husband although it is hard to like him sometimes. I'm sure I'm not alone is this either. I get told do what is best for me. What if I don't know what is best for me? I think he loves me he loves the children that should be enough right? Then there are times when I think he loves the children but not me! So where do you go from here? do I stay and live this life? Do I go and pursue a new life with the boys? I am the only one that has the answers to these question only I can make these decisions. How am I to know what is the right decision? God help me guide me in the right direction and please please walk beside and hold my hand every once in a while! I know that the right decision will be made in time like I said please guide me in the right direction along the way.