A poem about internal turmoil. |
How does it end? What am I feeling now, After the tears have ceased? A dull pain Now, once again hidden, In the depths of my heart There it will stay, Until once again the hurt refuses To stay hidden away And emerges through my soul Bringing tears, unexplainable sobs That come from deep within Not ceasing, till my tears are gone And once again I can hide my hurt Deep within myself Where no one can find them With the tears and following dull throb Comes a temptation So strong, it take all my will to withstand That urge and want to end it all. Some pills, as many as I can It could all be over No more pain, or hurt, or tears To end my life. But I know I must overcome this tempting urge Life does hold happiness And I draw on that In the attempt to overcome my mood The deep, sorrowful mood That will descend on me Covering me, drowning me With the sweet sound of a solution But I think of my closest friends And the one I love It would cause them so much hurt So many questions The questions come, Where would I go, If I died tonight? I do not know The questions, complicated Only adding to the mood I feel as though I am drowning In a flood of emotions and questions Covering me until all I can do is cry again And yet I do not Still the throb may worsen, but I do not cry I try to move myself from my mood. The temptations, the questions, the fears They overcome me until I become thoroughly confused All I can do is sleep Sleep will bring dreams Some good, some bad But either will release me from my mood A rest from the questions When I wake things return, But in a lessened form For a while, sleep will cease all thought It is the same routine Repeated over and over The tears, the questions, the confusion And then sleep will come to claim me In my unconscious state I free from all But when will it end When will I escape from unexplainable tears Is there an escape? You hear that you must find an answer within yourself All I find are questions Questions with no answers When will it end? The tears, the emotions When will it end? |