Unrequited Love

lonely and broken,
I crumble inside
forcing out every bloodstain
that I've cried.
heeding to silence,
I tremble in fear
of what I've become
and of all I held dear.
now I am helpless.
I can't change my fate.
I have no regrets
though I've made my mistakes.
if I could go back
to the moment you kissed me,
I wouldn't stop you,
but do it more gently.
let you feel my passion,
this undying burn
to taste what you are.
for your essence, I yearn.
I reach out to touch you,
but quickly draw back,
afraid you won't love me
and then love I'll lack.
I still remember
the way that you taste;
your hand on my shoulder,
my hands on your waist.
I'm sorry it hurt you,
sorry you cried.
I felt so horrendous
a piece of me died.
I know I can't have you.
you're only a friend.
I fall in defeat,
try to let my heart mend.
I know we'd be perfect.
it's here in my head.
I see you so clearly.
your absence I dread.
yes, I've fallen for you.
I like you, I'm sorry.
but please say you're staying
and please do not worry.
I'll be ok.
I've made it this far.
my pride may be beaten,
my heart may be scarred,
but damn it, I want you...
I want you to stay.
because you're the one
that takes my pain away.
I'm sorry for all this.
please...please don't go.
cuz if you ever read this...
there's a reason you know.