i need a life!!!!

Day in and day out. I don't think I have ever been so bored with myself in my life.
I  am currently in a relationship and he makes me happy,but sometimes I don't know. I don't get out really anymore. Really don't enjoy talking with people like I use to, I don't know, sometimes I even think I might be obsessed with him. He doesn't ever have time to spend with me he is busy all the time. But then again when I am with him, I don't stop smiling. I don't think he understands how much he means to me. Or how much I have gave up just to be with him. From everyones else perspective I have it made. If so, why do I feel so lonely  all the time? My everyday is in hoping maybe he will spend a little tme with me. Or hell just aknowledging me when I'm around would be nice. I would like for him to even sit by me. I don't know maybe i'm stupid. On his myspace page says hes single, and mine i'm all proud of him telling everyone then when my friends click on his profile from my page its says he's single with nothing but hoochies , oh and me on his friends list. Then the other night me and a few friends went out for a few drinks and then when I came home all excited to see him, he's leaving as i'm pulling in. Then when he gets back a few hours later, he done accused me of getting turned on by someone else!! When it was honestly him!! I don't know.I do love him. Sometimes I wish I didn't. Its kind of sad cause now its like he's my life. And I made it that way. Changed alot just to please him, but he won't change. He says he is but still same shit. I mean really, is this love? Is this really it?