I Know You Are In There

Growing up I admired and adored you. You were always there for me no matter what. As time passed we grew apart some; I was becoming a woman. We began to see less of eachother although we thought of each other often. I love you more now than then. I know you become lonely when Grandma died; you smiled and said you were OK but that was a lie. Now, all grown up and on my own, I, too, often feel alone. I look into your eyes and know you are in there; although sometime I am not sure where. I try to be brave and not show I am scared but deep down inside I am terrified. Afraid for you- what are you thinking? Nobody knows....do you recognize us? I can only pray so. It kills me to see you so sad and I want so hard to make you glad. I wish I knew how much precious time we have. Will it be now or will it be then; this precious life that I know will end. So, please know I love you so-but I know there will come a time you have to go. I know you are tired and miss loved ones long gone and I know I have no right right to keep you hanging on. So please know that deep inside I am OK with you leaving and I understand why. You have asked about your sister who we lost long ago...is she lonely is simply what you want to know. If you need to go be with her, please do, it has been a long time since she has seen you. Grandma is also waiting for you with hugs and kisses that are long over due. So please don't stay for fear I will hurt because I know in time we will be together again forever. And I look forward to that day with a tear on my face but a smile in my heart. I love you Grandpa now and forever....now matter how long we will be apart we will be together always in my heart.