eyes shut

i look and all i see is you.
there are other people; i know there are
but im blinded. behind you there is a white curtain
blocking them from view. i hear your laugh,
you actually were humored by what i said?
what did i say? i
had planned what to say but i forgot it when i saw your
smile. you smiled when you saw me. of course
i smiled when i saw you
you are laughing, you lean forward, i lean in
our lips touch, our lips touch
dear g-d our lips touch
the sweetest lips heaven and earth have ever known.
you are close to me, very close
and i feel so good, i know you
do too. im so close i can smell your cologne
why did you wear cologne? why; that makes
no sense.
"i love you"
the three most prescious words ive heard
and as you lean in again i close my eyes.
when i open them you are gone and i am
alone, very alone.
shivering with a tear shuddering its way down my cheek
because i know it can never really happen.