in control?

Mind Blast
i think im going insane my main brain which was once sane has drained the thought i gained,
derailed, but contained the hail to maintain the trail of my sayin to impail the grain of your pale small brain so you can obtain my reason to sink this season to link the past with later so fast the traitor,
will stab your back, still grab your pack,
it listens for you when you call, shits missins,you knew then you fall.
but ignore what more you desire to conspire to continue for longer but in you your tired
, but resist what we insist to not stop, it persist you not stop,
but with a mind to unbind the curse and reverse and unwind it gets worse as we find the first grind with mental collision and rental descision
and well being to tell freeing this shackle to tackle the fight on sight and brain stability and contrain abilty to choose the side who lose who hide, but we all reside to say we decide.
but at times we think were at the brink of loosing it and bruisen  our infection without our detection and our recollections forgets but regrets that inspection to an extent we meant to subconsciencly vent
how obnoxiously we sent ourselves and wealths with a one way ticket and one day pick it as the one way to remember our mistakes as we lend our sakes to the one with no brakes


heres what i came up with


advice never asked for is not really useful , may be nice but its worthless as its dull
but advice on living and how to be giving and rules unforgiving got me driven out of my mind and i find comprehension try to rewind the progression as it seems impossible for true understanding on everything is.
No one is right or wrong, people fight, hit a bong
to them its good and defend it,
but to others see it as wrong, how its bad, makes them mad
demand change and hatred remains, command or complain natures to blame.
A pointless never ending war, based on opinions and control,
when enough people belive something it becomes true, but then it comes down to you and only you,
what you belive and is correct to you is the truth whether its accepted or new.
your meaning of existence has no one answer
its being persistent casual manner, but a question i have is,
                        "everything we do and how to act and when to cry, how to react, who should lead the way, whos to say how thier relgion is real, how to dress, why you must confess, what to compete, how you should treat others you meet how to judge them, whats good to eat. From fighting wars to building stores, to presidential elections to residential perfection, mandating inspections, the house of corrections. These are all man-made concepts, you must understand and let, everything you know about what reality is go , and your mentality will grow without being held back by what society told you so, your minds free from fact and fiction that shit can lack our underingstanding and exist,  dont demand it dismissed without listening or insist since its been consisestently different with how things are, that it shall be ignored.
              Everything we know is fake, whether we accept it or take it for what is, were convinced our child hood imagaintion has been rinsed from our smile, we couldn't be a nation of delusional looneys still trapped in denial. When were kids our fake rules to the silly game was very real, and felt rules as powerful as laws and the game did not seem invented. We just evolved how we solve boredom, create delusions and debate laws that are just illusions that without control the confusion would be constant and it would onset a chain of wild animals gone mad, so dont forget your tax as it handles it be glad.
            We can chose to belive nothing or everything but nothing, we can violently convince others or silently hint, cover motives with opinions on topics society, wont be able to explain but will belive all it with no why.

            We are trying to always win the impossible were always lying to see if the boss will belive your exuse how you found your dog steve and wild goose tying a noose, cant come in to work, planned it so well itll work. But everyday we lie to ourselves to others whose wealths are social concern to us and lie about how we should punish spoken cuss. We lie to get others to agree with us, artificial opinion made up now their official delusional thought.
          To be free is to be happy with what your doin, and if life is screwing you and no action is placed because lifes just chewiing you attraction of disgrace, and give up to say "better live up, everyday we have to say and do things we dont want to because thats the way it is," well it does relate, but it does negate our alleged fate as free, which doesnt suprise me.

   


        Hey its 6 in the morning my hand is cold a sure fire warning
my body needs warming before more bruises start forming
I told myself it wasnt gonna be like this
i mold myself doesnt wanna stay like this
but its the way i kno
im happy but not for reasons show
you claim its bad and i must turn around
and make me pay for what i found
but you cant shape me in your reflection
cuz i wont  change for false perfection.
it may be bad and i did one time die
but thats my decision, up to me to decide.
thats the wonder of life my friend
because nothing matters at the end