My realization of my addiction. |
no lost its voice the inching worm of frustration slurps along the muck of my guts as the knowledge of the up I spurned last week will gladly reenter my mental embrace I didn’t need you for a whole week maybe ten days I stately sigh to myself- pathetic rationalization is realized like the whino that neglects to check her piss stained feet for spare change proffered so I sit and view bleakly the wind tunnel of glass and storm watching and waiting as it waves its ambiguous blur flag signaling the realm of stars beneath the retinal patterns singularly my own- yet ruefully and raggedly assuming the same wane pall of the immediately gratified masses the pretense of decorum while assuming the position of the snowbird under cover- fly away birdie away amidst the glorified sundripped ocean rememberances of yestermorrow internal toes tap rhythmically out of pattern sicko sousa swirling sounds- attempted distraction of the inner craving worm twisting metallic meth lust dragon- pitiable undertakings irreparable damage- incurable affliction its off to the islands for fun in the sun- Molokai for me the leper soul the novelty forfeits its pleather cherub wings all a flutter cheekiness- evolving within the worn mousy browns of drudgery so I peruse my inner world of me shaped musings wanting- needing? to descry the desideratum given me upon graduation of my claymation doppelganger monster me self rears its head- my world of glutton ugliness freebird- become dream barren frostbird dons the scarlet letter of choice stark against the sacrifice of glitter drenched would be reveries of once and future goodness addiction’s genitalia has gone missing- and I’m mindless in my privation of powder haze meanderings feed me you fucking pipe and give to me the hyped world of tight rope walking without the net sucking and yucking and crazy bee buzzing I supplicate that crystal leaded penis version of cranial orgasm production oh god please help me MCW |