I Love Adam Bennett

1


'Hi, my name is Cain Mitchell, an I'm gay.'

Isn't that the first step...admitting that you are. At least that is what the AA people say. But I am not an alcoholic but who said I couldn’t borrow those steps. Well at least for now I can.

I never thought I was gay. I knew I was different when I was younger. I mean… but it wasn’t until I meet my best friend Adam Bennett. I was sixteen, and he was seventeen. Just starting a new High school in a new town, I was terrified. But I found Adam, he was a junior, and knew what was going down in the school, all the gossip. He seemed to be everyone’s favorite person. And I stuck to him like glue. High School, it all seemed to flow more peacefully. We hung out. Laughed and joked, just normal kids you know.

Adam was the one who got me interested in sports. He was like a minor god on the soccer field. We would go to his house and Adam would try and teach me soccer. Even though I knew the basic concept, to get the ball to opposite side of the field and score, just like in every other sport with a ball and field. I was never as good, but as a goalie I could handle my own against him in the game. It was kind of like blackjack to me. You have very few options and always assume the other can trump you and you will have the upper hand in knowing what to expect.

But still, even as a goalie I was never good enough to be on the team. But, Adam… he was. I would go to his games and cheer him on. There, at one of his games, is when my friendship with Adam sort of molded into a major crush. I didn’t know I was feeling that way just by watching him. I mean at his height of 6” he was just normal in the game. But the way that Adam moved, the shorts being baggy but not enough to disclose site from anything and his legs: long, lean and very muscular but almost hidden by his pale skin; the way his shaggy black hair that is always long enough for a ponytail. His lips full and parted slightly by labored breathing. During this I found myself watching him very intently. With the fact I was getting very excited by watching him move in and out, and side-to-side caught my attention. I wanted to watch him squirm as I lick away the sweat off his board chest…but I put it aside. Every miss, I would be sad and with every comeback I would cheer like all the other fans of the team in the crowd.

He was beautiful to say the least, majestic to say the most. I had never found myself so attracted to him, or any one as a matter of fact. He was my angel of the field. He seemed to float on the ground and without effort be the best ever. And as one would imagine we won, leaving the other team to dust.

At the end of the game, I ran down to where the players all were. I was smiling so much, and had such butterflies I couldn’t ever imagine. And once Adam saw me he ran up to me. He was so sweaty…it wasn’t too bad. He was just… was … just very breathtaking and as he got over to where I was I said,

“Oh man, you were on fire! That was amazing!” And I hurriedly meet him and gave him a huge hug and twirled him around.

“I know. That was much better than we've ever done at practices." He was smiling so and the guys were whooping up a storm in the back make sounds at the fact that he just said that they were amazing. And as I sat him back down. I reached and put my arm around his shoulder.

“We should do something ya know?"

“Ahhh…man, the guys are going to go out to eat first. But you could come with us. We could also hang out afterwards”

“That would be wicked! I would love too come along. You don’t think they’d mind if I tagged along. Do ya?

“Naw Cain, who cares anyway. Fuck’ em! Your coming! I want you there. I'm all wired and you’re my best mate. YOUR COMING!”

I jokingly added, “When did you become British? Mate?”

“Shut up!” and elbowed me in the side kind of rough but still playfully. “Well I see you in a bit. Why don’t you meet us back at the school? We can figure things out from there…ok?”

“ ‘Ight meet you there” I yelled back as they went to the bus.

As I walked back to my car and got in, I sat there and just waited. I had to lean against the steering wheel. OHMIGOD! I couldn’t believe everything I was feeling. I have never been so… I guess in love…is that what I'm feeling, must be. As well as I touched him, and hugged him. He too said mate. Ok, not mate as in let’s mate, but I don’t care. I was thinking about mating…or something close. OHMIGOD I… I just admitted it to myself. Hell, I know and have known it was true. I was thinking of a whole lot of things to do to him the whole time I was watching him. I have never even thought of things like that towards any girl, but my friend, my guy friend, it just felt so right. It was, well damn sexy if I thought about him as he was on the field. Hot with sweat, his hair pulled back and bouncing around in a circle on his shoulders; Adam, with his broad muscular shoulders that you could hold on too forever. It made me want to meow like a tomcat in heat. His throat with the Adams apple so visible and bobbing up and down with labored breathing. I practically purr thinking about it.

“Ughhh” I sat up and hit my steering wheel. I can’t believe myself! I am getting so worked up and practically dripping over my best friend! My best guy friend, why can’t this be a girl? I got to talk to him about it.


2

As I reached the school some of the guys were already leaving the locker rooms. You could defiantly tell that they had not showered. I hope Adam has taken one I thought randomly. No you don’t care what are you talking about…

I sighed and said, “Well crap. I am sitting arguing with myself…how much lamer can I get? I got to distract myself …how about some tunes.” Flipping on the radio. I slumped in my car and waited for Adam to come out…if only. Watching the door as all of them leave the lockers.

After what felt like twenty minutes I finally said in a muffled voice to myself, “God Adam, come on. What in the hello-miss-molly is taking you so long.”

“Maybe, putting up with punk kids just like yourself is what is taking me sooo long to get out here.” Adam said grinning outside my car window.

“Oh my God! I thought I was going to die of a heart attack. And I'm too young for that shit!”

While slipping inside the passenger seat Adam says, “ Oh, come now language there are influential ears present.”

“Who?” with as mush sarcasm as I could emphasize on the word.

”Well me of course,” Adam said with a little lisp, flipping his wet hair behind his back “I'm most influential.”

“Shut up! You are not. You're incorrigible!”

“Sure you can say that.”

As I begin backing up the car, I asked Adam were we where headed to eat. “Well actually we ate before we came back to the school. They served food there.”

“Oh man that sucks. I haven’t eat yet.”

“ Why didn’t you eat at the game?”

“I was … watching the game.” I added rather quickly. But Adam didn’t seem to mind that too much. He just was looking around as I continued to drive down the street. “ So,” I said nervously. “Where to now.”

“ I don’t know. How about you just crash at my house tonight. It is Friday, not like it is a school night, and my Mom and Dad will not care. We can hang out in the basement. We just put up the big screen down there. And we got a pull out couch. It should be awesome.”

“ I should ask my parents first, but I guess I could call from over there. They have never had a problem with me staying at your house before.”

“ Yah,” Adam said turning to me. “Your parents love me. They probably think I am the best influence on you.”

“ I think they do actually.”

“Hah that is too funny! Me a good influence, as if!”

“Yah, my parents are messed up like that.”

“True that they are, I don’t know how you are so perfect, while they are not. I mean I could cut the tension between you and your parents with a knife” Adam said. Then added softly, so that I could barely tell if he even said a word, “but why would I cut something so beautiful, I would rather kiss it.”

With that my heart beat faster than you could ever believe was possibly. I am sure I didn’t make that up. But was it friendly, I didn’t know. We never talk about sex. Which is totally weird right. Guys talk about sex. All about how sex would be, and girls, but we have never talked about the girls we like or liked. God! I have to be gay. I know is what I mean. I have never felt the way Adam makes me feel. Even now, I so want to hold his hand. Is that wrong? It sure doesn’t feel wrong.

“Cain you just went past my driveway.”

“Shit! I am sorry I was just thinking,” I backed up and pulled in the driveway. “I don’t know what made me miss it. I was just out there.”

“It is ok Cain God you only just missed it. It happens ok, let it go.” Adam was just quietly laughing at me. But at least he understood and wasn’t yelling at me. Even though that has never happened. It could have, simple as that. He could have been all bent out of shape for nothing. As we walked through his house we ran in to his parents in the living room.

“Hey mom,” Adam said as he plopped on the couch putting his arm around his mom, “is it ok if Cain stays over and we crash in the basement tonight? I mean since we won the game and all?”

“Oh well…I don’t care. What did your father say?”

“Daaaad…”

“Just don’t break anything. That TV cost a lot of money.” Mr. Bennett said without even looking away from his newspaper.

“ Ok, thanks much. We are going go eat some food then go watch some movies. Ok?”

“Sounds lovely dear. Do you guys need any extra blankets it gets kind of chilly?”
“Oh don’t worry I will get them. Love you mom.”

As we made are way to the kitchen, “Well, that went well.” I said.

“Yah I told you they didn’t care. Plus I don’t think they would have cared if they didn’t know. You are always here on the weekends anyway.”

“Yah,” I said “ I'm going to call my mom ok. And tell her I'm staying over.”

“All right I heat up some food. Ahhh fuck, you know what I'm just taking down junk food. I don’t want to cook.”

“Ok,” and I went to the kitchen wall to grab the phone and dialed home.

“ Hey Rhonda, is mom there. Ok will you put her on then? Hey mom I was… yes I am staying at Adams. . Tomorrow. Ok bye.”

“Well wasn’t that a lovely mother and son conversation. Ok now which chips you want. I want to the Sun Chips, you can pick another.”

“ I wanted the Sun Chips.”

“Ok then, we can share.” Adam said as he wiggled his eyebrows.

“What was that for?” I asked him as he opened the basement down and went down.

“ What was what?”

“ The. Never mind.” As we made our way downstairs I gave up trying to figure him out

3


Adams house is huge. As expected anyone with a huge house is loaded when it comes to money. But we never really talk about it much. But as soon as I got down in the basement, it was quite obvious that I was from a poor family. It looked like a mini mansion. Even had a pool table and a huge DVD collection on the side by the stereo that in no other words could be described as, ‘kick-ass’.

“So,” Adam said and with a grunt as he flopped down on the wrap around sofa. “What you want to do. Besides eat chips. We don’t have to watch movies. You know if you don’t want too. Whatever.”

“Well, I'm actually not that hungry and I could watch some movies. I don’t care.”

“All right, what movie. You pick.”

“Oh I hate picking movies out.” I said as I made my way to the tower. “ Hmm how about … wait these aren’t in English.”

“Huh? Let me see.” Adam moved from the couch and come over beside me. Very close beside me I could smell his soap. It suited him. It was very masculine. It made my mouth water for no reason other than smelling him.

“Oh you are looking at the wrong ones. The English ones are over there. Right beside 'em, see.” And he pointed with his right hand, but magically his left appeared on my lower back. His very large hand was resting on my lower back near my ass. Someone must have messed with my internal thermostat because I went to calm to boiling in a matter of one second.

“Oh silly me, ok I got a movie. Here lets watch it.”

“ Sound of Music, ok whatever you want, Cain. You sure that is the movie you wanted. I was more in the mood for something quite and less singsong like. But what ever floats your boat.”

“Yah I totally want to watch that it is a favorite of mine.” I said and I hurriedly rushed back to sofa and sat down while Adam loaded the movie.

As the movie began Adam moved over to where the chips were between us. God he smelled so good. It should be illegal to be that beautiful and that wonderful to just smell. If there were a hot scale Adam would be a defiant 17 right now. And the scale goes from 1-10.

Halfway through the movie Adam turns to me and says, “Aren’t you going to eat any of the chips? I have eaten more than half of the bag. Are you ok, you don’t look good?” and I tell you as if I was in a wonderful dream. Adam put his hand on my knee and was rubbing it. As if it comforted me. It certainly captured my attention. Especially a certain part of my attention, with every rub I was getting more excited if he was doing this on purpose, he was certainly working my last nerve.

“I am not that hungry anymore. I am ok.” I said.

“Alright I'm going to go and change. Ok? If you want a shower there is one over behind the bar to the right. Ok I will bring down some clothes for you to change into.” With one last rub on my knee he left it alone long enough to run his hand up farther on up my leg.

“Yah that is great.” I said and jumped off the couch and moved to the shower. A shower sounded like a call from heaven right now.

During my shower I was fortunate to find his soap he used. Grabbing a towel and putting it firmly in place, I stepped out into the basement again. Adam was downstairs in his night pants and t-shirt that showed off his muscles so well on his stomach. I could imagine myself licking them till they started twitching along with another part of him.

“There you are. Geez take long enough in there. I paused the movie so you didn’t miss anything,” he got up and handed me the clothes. As I started to turn around he grabs a hold of my opposite shoulder blocking me from turning all the way around softly like you would a lover. I looked back straight into his big green eyes. And then he said, “ You smell really good.” Then he lets go and turns back to the movie to wait for me. I turned and stepped back in the bathroom and in record time rushed to put on my clothes.

When I got back out to the couch the movie was going. He must have thought it was ok to start since I was just putting on clothes. His clothes. Not that it mattered whose clothes where who’s right. No. I still needed to tell him my feelings about him right. He would understand. He is my best friend. I will tell him.

“Adam I have something to tell you. But promise me you won’t freak out, promise you won’t tell anyone, Please”

“What is it? What happened Cain?” Adam was scared now. I could tell I spooked him by just blurting it out. He reached over and turned off the movie. I never was very subtle.

“Well I like someone. But the thing is…” I had so many butterflies in my stomach. I thought I was going to throw up. And I hadn’t even eaten anything. “ The thing is it is a guy. Adam I am gay.”

“Really.” He didn’t seem upset at least not now I didn’t tell him it was him that I liked. “Your gay, really when that happen?” God he is so good at confusing me, and he says he is bad with words. As if.

“What do you mean? I didn’t think you were? I am confused.”

“Never mind,” Adam said with a sad tilt to his eyes. But he looked back up at me. We were so close I could smell his breath. He recently brushed his teeth. But that couldn’t distract me from what he said next. “So who is the lucky fellow? Do I know him?”

“That is what I need to talk to you about. You do know him, because…”

“Because what?” Adam said and turned to look at me. He did look so sad. It made my heart hurt. I wanted to hold him till the end of time.

“Because it is you! I didn’t mean…”

“What?”

“See I thought you were going to handle the wrong way so I wanted to like lean into telling you, but… you know. And I have never been attracted to girls at all. Even when I was younger, I knew that I was always fond of guys. But I never would have thought my best friend… I never thought I’d feel this way about you. Watching you tonight, you were amazing. You truly were. Since we have been spending so much time together. I have been thinking more and more about you."

After I said it was Adam and I tried to explain myself for it. Adam put his hands on either side of my face and kissed me. Not just kissed me. Not one kiss, several. Started out with a closed mouth, then open mouth and I could barely stand it. I moved my hands his sides and deepened our kiss. And he moaned in my mouth. Which only encouraged me. I couldn’t have ever predicated this to happen. He moved his hands slowly down from face to my back and to move me closer to him. The closer I got to him the more excited I got and the more we both began to kiss more franticly. Our tongues began to dance with each other and explore one another’s mouth.

I started to lean him backwards on the couch, to be that I was on top of him. I broke from his kiss and started to kiss my way down to his the side of face to ear to throat. My hands simultaneously had a mind of their own. They had found ways up his shirt to be resting on his chest and rubbing my hands from them down his sides; to the middle of his stomach back up in a continued circle till they found his lower back.

At that Adam let out another muffled moan and rubbed up against me all the way from head to toe. And soon I found myself pulling his shirt off and him pushing me off of him.

“I have something to tell you to Cain.” Adam said as he took off his own shirt the rest of the way and then tackling the obstacle of my shirt which at lighting speed ended up been thrown over his shoulder. He sat on my legs; therefore, pinning me as he dipped his head down started licking his way from below my nipple. But as soon as he got to my nipple he took it into his mouth and caused me to buck underneath him. He then let it go and progressed to throat, then my ear and whispered softly. “I am too.” And then he laughed softly at gasp I let out when he slowly took my nipple with his teeth, which only caused me to shiver. Then he broke the contact and continued to say, “ I have wanted you since came up to me and started to hang out around me. You were so beautiful. You are like my other half. I never want you to go. I could never imagine you would feel the same for me. Never in my wildest dreams, but I am glad you do.”

Then in a swift movement he was back to kissing me more deeply than before. Then he began to leisurely moving his hands to the band of the night pants that I had just put on. I was already hard, but as soon as his hand made its way down my night pants and underwear I began pulsating. My breath seemed to be caught in my chest. And his hand found me and began rubbing and pumping me to where I thought I was going to scream with ecstasy. My breathing began to be more of a gasp. Adam began to chuckle as he was kissing me. And began pumping harder and harder till I thought I was going to explode. Then I came. And Adams chuckle deepened and he broke our kiss.

“Come on man. I know you got more of a ride in there.” His eyes were practically sparkling with lust and it didn’t bother me one bit. Then he moved his hand out from behind me and his other hand, which had been massaging me and slowly began pulling off my pants.

“Oh God.” I moaned as the night pants were removed from my body and Adam began pulling off his. And I noticed that unlike me he thought underwear was a nuisance because I never noticed that he went commando to bed before.

Adam looked at me and began having a mischievous grin on his face. “Hmm underwear is such a pain. Don’t you agree Cain?”

“Hell yah.” I said and I ripped my underwear off and pulled Adam into ferocious kiss. Adam began moving against me in time to the kisses. Kisses and he began tracing his way down from my nipple to my lower hip. And then he broke the kiss and voice raspy said, “Turn over please.”

He didn’t even have to ask I was already moving over once he broke the kiss. I was over on my stomach and arms above my head. Adam moved to be covering my back and then I could feel the head of him at the opening. He then said, “Cain it will hurt but…”

“I don’t care! Do it! Please!” I said. And with that with one deep thrust he was inside. And I gritted my teeth in pain. But he then pulled out to where only the tip was in and thrust in again. And this time the pain was gone and only ecstasy remained. “God, more! Do that again!”

“My pleasure!” Adam grunted out and he moved his mouth to be my lips were on the side and kissed me while gently pulled in and out and in a repeated motion. He began kissing his way down the back of my neck as his gentle thrust began to be more excited and hurried. I moved my legs to were they where wrapped around Adams. Pulling him tighter into me. With each drive into me, you could hear a little grunt from Adam. It drove me crazy. Then one of his hands soon found a way under my legs and found me again and feverishly began pumping me again. At that I let out a loud moan. Which only made Adam pump faster and faster till I came again. Then he let go and put both hands on either side of my body and thrust harder and harder, till finally he came inside me.

And he collapsed on top of me breathing heavy. I slowly turned on my side to wear he was right beside me and sighed.

“I love you.” Adam said.

“I love you too Adam.” I said and I wrapped my arm around him and we drifted off to sleep. Sleeping beside each other.
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4


It must have been late at night, maybe around three when I awoke to find Adam lying sprawled over top of me. And remembering early events I had a blush creeping its way to my face and I felt compelled to run my hand through his black hair to where it was streaming over my chest. I started to shiver and realized there was no covers on us. So I leaned up and kissed him on the forehead and silently tried to get up out of his way. But he woke up and mumbled at me not too move and gripped against my shoulder to keep me in place.

“I need to get some covers. It is cold.” I said quietly although I don’t think it would have mattered to him though. Because as soon as I got up and laid him back down on his back, he let out a little puff of breath which moved his hair that went over his face and was back to sleep. As I went to the pull out couch I to get the covers on it I just decided to make the whole couch out. It would hurt laying on here now. Would it? Oh well.

After I made the couch out and the covers where on it, I decided it was time rouse sleeping beauty, which Adam had somehow managed to practically roll of the couch. As I approached the couch I devised a plan that would certainly provide Adam pleasure as he woke up. As I reached the couch I gently rolled him over on his back but instead of making him get up on his own I decide to just carry him over to the other couch. It was no more than ten steps away. So I gently picked him up and laid him down in the middle of the pull out couch. Adam still on his back as before, but this time I silently spread his legs a little farther apart to provide me kneeling room in between his muscular legs.

Running my hands over his upper legs, I bent down to kiss his upper thigh, slowly trailing along to the top of his shaft, which was still semi-erect. Then slowly I traced down the side to underneath him and the top of him until he was fully in mouth. Adam let out a breath but wasn’t fully awake. Then with my other hand I gently circled each ball with my fingers. Adam sat up like a bolt of lighting just went through him.
“What the hell? Oh my god.” Adam now fully paying attention to what I was doing leaned back down on his elbow so he could watch me still.
As soon as I began circling the tip of him with my tongue and pumping with my hand on the base of him, Adam let out a whimper. So I moved faster and faster with my hand and then abandoning his shaft I took each of his balls into my mouth. Adam suddenly fell back on the bed and thrust hard into my hand. So I moved quickly back his shaft and began again, Adam thrust again, again and again.
“Cain. I can’t take much more. I am going to come.” He said with a labored effort.
To show him that I didn’t care I moved my hand out of them of him and took him all the way into mouth and grabbed onto his hips, and then Adam thrust once more and came but I was there to catch it all.

No sooner had I gotten up on my knees grinning, and then Adam leapt at me throwing me to the end of the couch. As soon as my back made contact with the couch Adam was soon kissing me like there was no tomorrow. And I kissed him just as fierce I swear I saw stars.

But as I started to kiss him, than he had stopped kissing to look at the door to the top of the stairs on the basement. There were footsteps on the top of the stairs headed down. Adam ran to the opposite couch and grabbed our clothes and threw some at my face and landed back on the bed with a to throw over us. His fathers erupted at the bottom of the stairs and he stumbled over the last steps. Quickly as possibly Adam and
I tired desperately to put our pants back on with out much movement to be seen.

“Adam,” Mr. Bennett said quietly, “your mother made me come down here to see if you guys were ok with the covers. I see it was a wasted trip though you are fine. G’night.” And as he started to walk away, he stopped at the end of the wrap around sofa. And I realized Adam forgot to give me my underwear.

“Adam!”

“What?”

“Is that your underwear on the floor?” Mr. Bennett yelled at Adam, as he made his way back to the couch we were on. And Adam sat up to talk to him.

“There is underwear on the floor?”

“Don’t play dumb with me Adam. I won’t get mad just why don’t you have your underwear on?”

“Dad, I do.” Adam said looking his dad start in his eyes. “They just must have fell out of my hands as I was bringing up the dirty clothes of mine from down here in the bathroom. They are in the laundry room if you want to look.”

“No I don’t want to look. We will talk about this tomorrow. I am sorry to have woken you Cain.” With that Mr. Bennett walked back upstairs and slammed the door.

“Adam? Are you ok?” How could you possibly be ok when your dad just found your friends underwear on the floor?

“Yah I will be fine. I can’t believe mom made him come down here.”

“Do you think they heard us earlier? And that is why they came down here?”

At hearing that Adams face got very pale and gaunt. “They couldn’t have. The walls are soundproof. And their bedroom is on the top floor. They couldn’t have heard.”

“I was just suggesting.” I said glumly.

“No, no! Adam.” I said and I moved on the bed to so that I was sitting beside him and so I could pull him into a hug. “Adam it will be ok. I promise. It can’t be that bad could it? I bet they didn’t hear. It is ok. It is ok.”

Wrapping my arms around him, I cradled his head against my chest. And just let him stay there. He needed me just to be a good friend, he needed comfort and I knew I wanted to give him that. I mean he was scared shitless. We were only kissing seconds before Mr. Bennett came down those stairs and saw the underwear. I had no idea what to do for him other than to be there and hold him.

Adam turned in my arms and looked at me. “Cain, whatever happens, will you still want to be with me? I mean after my parents find out. If they now about us.”

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5

“Adam,” I said looking him straight in the eyes. “ Why would I ever do such things to hurt someone who loved me as you do? That would be foolish to turn my back on you.” I wrapped my arms tightly around him pressing his body to me. “I will still be with you even if it takes time.” These words I spoke, I had no idea where they came from. It seemed from my very heart and soul poured into those words. And to my utter disbelieve I believed every one of them. I knew I had found someone special. I loved Adam with every fiber of my soul. My first friend, my first crush, and my first lover this beautiful boy how could I do anything more than be with him when he needed me.

Adam blushed at my words, but stared at me to try and figure something out or to see if it was the truth I said. I was unnerved a little but deep inside I knew he would not hurt my feelings by what I had said.

“What is it?”

“Oh nothing,” he whispered softly as he returned his face resting on my shoulder. “I was just memorizing every line of your face. So I’ll never forget what treasure I have found in you. Does that sound sappy or what? But that is what I was thinking.” Then he moved his hands on my back in little circles that was driving me crazy with lust.

“Adam, you better stop doing that, or we will be back to where we were before you dad came in.”

“Hmmm… but you’re so very tempting.” And then he dug his finger nails in my back ever so lightly and pull me closer to him too where I could still tell he was excited from the last time. Then with his tongue going in little swirls over my chest he murmured “And I was never good at leading away from temptation.”

“Adam.” I said warningly with my head held high looking at the ceiling. Trying to memorize the tiles or something to get my mind preoccupied from what Adam was tediously doing to my body.

“What is it,” he said moving his mouth over my nipple while the other was stroking the other. Striking his teeth around it left it hard and he licked around it and slowly moved to the other one to repeat the same process one the other nub. But not before saying, “are you ashamed at how I make you feel?”

“It…is…Not that... just your dad might come down again…don’t want that too happen again.” Saying each of my words with little puffs of breath trying my best to restrain myself from enjoying his actions even a little. But I was losing at a maddening pace as I let out a little moan when he decided to withdraw from my other nipple in place to kiss up and down my neck.

“Is that all you want…sex… I can’t just comfort you?”

“No, I don’t want sex. I want to make love with you only and you alone. Difference, much.” He said throatily in my ear nibbling the ear lobe after trailing kisses down it first.

“ But we did.”

“Yah, but,” he purred as crawled on my lap and scorched my mouth with a kissing that left my body tingling in all the right places. “You want this just as much as I do, I can tell. You might be fooling your mind but your body is telling another story.” Then capturing my lips in another mouthwatering kiss he ground his pelvis against mine in a solid movement, reeking total chaos on my control.

As my control slipped through my grasp, I rolled Adam to where he was sprawled at my stomach with his long legs wrapping around and tucking them forever in his grasp.
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6

As my eyes fluttered open at the first light of morning, I looked around for Adam. It seemed as though all thoughts have lifted from me. I never felt anything like this at all… And know all emotion was tied to him and myself. I never wanted to leave him. As I say him lying on the other side of the bed, his hair spilling over the side, his muffled snores escaping in short puffs at times.

I smiled lazily. I moved over and cuddled up next to him with my face nestled in the crease in his neck and my arm around him.

I knew, when he woke up, and talked with his parents; something was going to happen. I didn’t know what. But I knew it would change us. Either for the better or…it never crossed my mind at the time that anything could be that bad as leaving him or him leaving me.



I couldn't tell you when he left me that morning. Or if I even noticed his absence in the bed. But I can tell you when I heard the scream emanating from the upstairs kitchen. I knew something had gone amuck.

As I rushed from the sofa, I ran up the stairs two at a time taking no chances. Adam needed me I was sure of it. At the top step of the stairs I slammed into the door with enough force to push it open. Even with my scrawny stature for a sixteen-year-old boy, I managed to budge it. To my horror and disgust, a trail of blood with a knife lingering at the start of the puddle. The puddle grew more frantic as it progressed it way down the hallway, I could see where there were solitary footsteps in blood the way down the corridor.

By the amount of blood, I knew chances weren't good, for the person who had lost it. I hurried faster and faster I went to where I was running to the end of the hall where there was a bathroom. The pool of blood was greatest here. As I walked through the doorway, I saw Adam covered in blood.


My heart seemed to stop in my chest. Adam was in the corner of the bathroom, hovering over someone, with his hands and chest bloody. Sobbing keeping pressure to a wound on Mr. Bennett’s chest.

“Help me! He is bleeding so badly! It won’t stop! He said it was to save me…. save me from damnation… why did … It wasn’t so bad!”

I never forgot that day. Neither did Adam. After his father-committed suicide his mother never left the house. And ten years later, I never been unfaithful or thought to leave Adam. Not just for what happened but I have never felt a close bond with any other person in my life, I Love Adam Bennett.