<Xpress yourself>

So spread your wings
of broken dreams
lose yourself to the hopes
the dreams
the wishes
of past
memories that fade
trusts that lack
Begin to feel the weight
weight of the world on your
shoulders
no one there to take
it away
no one there to help you
no one there
a silence that splits
the senses
a dream that shatters
reality
pain that dosn't take
away my grim thoughts
Pain of a blinding light
pain the colour of purple
burning veins with a
single set of
three words
I love you
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Monsterface
Cant seem to fathem
the idea of someone
caring
loving me
believing in me
i have to wonder how
and if thats not easily answered
then why?
why care for a monster like me?
why care for this
unloveable thing i am
i cant understand
you.
cant wrap my head around
how you feel.
an out of this world
decision it is
unreal to me
that someone
as amazing as you can care
can smile
can look at me
and say
I love you
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I watched that sunset yesterday
couldnt get you out of my head.
i miss you
i need you
you make me whole
you care
it suprises me
i'm facinated
i hurt you
i feel bad
keep replaying
all my mistakes
your special to me
you healed me when
i had shattered into a
thousand peices
please dont leave me?
i need you for everything
ghosts of a past
you float around my head
i cant get you out
you confuse
i geuss i'm just waiting
waiting for my luck to run out
to just drop
and not rise
not have to see the
dawn of a new day
not to face the fake smiles
just let my shell crack
kill me
a thousand peices
leave me
im waiting for it
its going to come
it always does
someday youll realize
im a monster
a mess
that im not worth it
and i never will be
one day youll realize
that there are to many
missing peices
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I keep sitting here
waiting for you
to look at me
and realize
just what a mess
i am
i'm waiting for you
to say goodbye
its inevitable
everyone does it
i'll miss you when your gone
but if it makes you happy
leave my shattered heart
behind
and find a way
to happier times
i'll take it to heart
i know i cant be loved
a fucking monster
not worth the breath
theres no other words
im a fucking monster
destroyed myself
a timebomb
left in my pocked
explode
slowly
killing me
Everything About You
cant stop to think
not now
only pain
ill write untill the end
of the age
if it means
i wont cry
wont feel that burning hole
where my heart should be
every thing is a god
damned mistake
im a mistake
save yourself
from my insanity
you dont need my pain
you have your own
just leave me here
between my dim and dark
ill lose myself
soon enough
a broken shell
nothing left
nothing but the
shattered peices of my
soul.
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Its ten somthing
im sitting here
the smell of your
skin still sweet
on my shoulder
time dosnt really matter
listening to everything changing
wondering if i did turn back time
went back to correct my mistakes
fix those things
i shouldnt have done
would i?
they brought me to where i am
and i like it here
but would it be better
if i wasnt?
would you be better without me
i dont care about my health
i know im not okay
but what about you?
wouldnt you be better
without this mess
without my tears
          my pain
              me?
Ive risen on my wings
of broken dreams
go ahead
shatter them
let me fall
your better without me
go
be happy
thats all i care about
thats all i need
ill go on
ill smile
say please
and thankyou
but without you
im lost
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a bit of poetry
spawned from a bad day
hope you liked it!!

Some Poetry Kym wrote at camp and refused to let anyone read...it's pretty!! ~Drayen


~A moon dance~
The moon hangs high
In this midnight sky
A beautiful golden sight
Basking in a silver light
Lost in your arms,
A warm embrace.

~Damn, I love you~
Your eyes shine
And capture mine
Your smile glows
And these words flow
Your hand holds my heart
I know we'll never part
Wow, who knew
That I love you


How to describe affection?
The way you kiss my nose
And the way the headlights of cars make your eyes glow
Before your lips grace mine.
The way our hands join in an intricate puzzle that seems to never end


A golden moon above
A fallen star
Held in the arms
Of a lost Angel.



12:00
A blessed hour
The hour of nothingness
The hour that doesn't exist
Take a deep breath,
One minute left
1 AM
Try again
To late now
My hour is gone
Breathe in
The scent of a
New day


A best friend
How to describe
The feelings
He's amazing
Everything
He cares
He's there
How?
Why?
What did I do to deserve this?
I didn't
Then
Why?

Broken reflections
In a trash can lid
Swirling my face
Into an unrecognizable
Design
Nothing
Compared to that mindless
Idea
Why do I look like this
So ugly
So unwanted
I wish I could fade away
To be as invisible
As unrecognizable
As my reflection
In that old
Dented
Trash can lid.


Small figurines
In a forest of green
Lost in the vines
Inside these lines
Hides a secret
Can you find it?
Can you light it?
Find my lost voice
Return my smile.
Reward: my world.


Books
A separate world
A new idea
A place of peace
A generous lease
Thank you
For this
Book.

Paper
Pencil
A new release
A new found trust
A new best friend
They don't betray
They won't hurt
With them
I am safe

Why I write?
I write cause I can
I write cause they told me I couldn't
I write cause that tangy sunset puts words in my mouth
I write cause he wants to read
I write cause I can express myself
I write cause the moon is an intoxicating golden silver
I write cause the fuckin' raven told me to
I write cause the fruit loops that float in the milk create interesting poems
I write cause I married the pen and paper
I write cause banana pancakes really do exist
I write cause I'm hot, you can't cause you not
I write cause the honeysuckle plants cast wars against my nose
I write cause pollen assaults my head
I write cause writer's block is a bitch once a month
I write cause I was fascinated one day, by the blue and red lines that limit me
I write cause how else am I supposed to remember those dreams?
I write cause I love how the ink swirls when I soak the page with to much
I write cause I want to
I write cause my teachers thought they could control everything
I write cause he is an over protective bastard
I write cause I need to free my mind
I write cause its natural
I write cause I have nothing better to do at 1:30 in the morning
I write cause I was inspired
I write cause I wanted to watch the sun rise
I write cause I wanted to describe its perfect glow
I write cause I wanted to show you my feelings
I write cause I know you'll never read it
I write cause then I can hide
I write cause it hides me
I write cause I can trust my paper
I write cause its what I love
I write cause you told me
I write cause I can


I remember
I remember your smile
I remember your eyes
I remember the way you looked at me
I remember your hair
I remember how the sun makes it glow like a halo
I remember that I know I should deserve you
I remember the perfect nights of lying in the grass, watching the stars
I remember that look, like it was just for me
I remember late night SVU marathons!
I remember the cakes
I remember banana pancakes
I remember 3AM phone calls
I remember every word you said
I remember the sharpie wars
I remember the way time flies when we're together, how it slows when we're apart
I remember the way you kissed my nose
I remember how the streetlights looked in your eyes
I remember how your lips graced mine
I remember how our hands join in intricate puzzles
I remember 2AM emotional breakdowns
I remember how you're always there
I remember how you forgot to say bye, and called back just say it
I remember the endless txts with 's
I remember super salt and vinegar chips
I remember butterflies
I remember so far away by Nickleback
I remember seeing only you
I remember being so damn nervous I hyperventilated.
I remember everything about you...actually I don't remember anything; all I remember is when you hugged me and said: so, movie on Friday?
I remember every time I smiled, no, I remember the one time I tried to stop....then      realized I couldn't
I remember you...
damn I miss you