My upside is down

My past is my future
My tomorrow is my yesterday
My right is wrong
Your wrong is my way

I crave who I hate
I hate who I once adored
I hurt those who want me
Tortured by love that's no more

Bandages can't cover
My gaping gashes
Needle and thread can't
Pull together my heart's pieces

There is no black and white
All I see is grey
What is the difference
Between tonight and day

My downside is up
My upside is down
My outside is in
My inside's outbound

This I uncertainly know
For him I fell
I'll never wish I hadn't
Even after all the hell