Concerning a Revelation

I’ve always been told that one of the most difficult decisions in life was choosing to do the right thing instead of the easy thing.
Throughout my life I have always tried to do the right thing even if it was not easy. I had a great sense of pride knowing that I was person who could maturely lay aside his own preferences and needs to do what is ultimately right. After awhile, I began to revel in the moments when I forsook my person image (perhaps even suffered some embarrassment) to do thing right thing in front of people. Somehow, the act of doing the right thing (while people could see it) was a way for me to show people that I was, in fact, mature and no longer a child. I was showing off, in a sense that I could be of a higher moral fiber then the average person.
Eventually, though, I caught a snag. I searched high a low for these opportunities to display my new moral fiber, but as I began to get older, identifying what was right began to get difficult. I decided that which ever option I had that brought me the most misery and shame was usually the right thing to do.
This past weekend I had a conflict with someone very close to me and I was presented with a few options for how to deal with it. I followed the pattern described above and now, my relationship with this person might never be right again.
I know now that it can be easy to do the right thing, and I’ve known that for a long time. The real trouble is…knowing which thing is right.