Such is the nature of the mind... |
Is there any wonder How the gulls and the dragonflies Find your scent upon the water? I can almost see your face In the pattern of cherry blossoms Floating in the clear blue Another moan Another headache Just trying to roll out of bed Hit the shower, but don't hit your head The day waits to embrace you Turn up your stereo Dance the nightmare away The telephone rings Hey now, Can't you see I'm in the middle of something? I'm preparing my dinner Linguine and mushrooms Shrimp and a steak And maybe a Pepsi too Some writing by candle light Some Tool in the speakers Call back when I'm sleeping You usually do She told me today That I raped her heart "Whatever do you mean my dear?" "I fell in love with you", she said "But I’ve kept it hidden You invade my dreams and my thoughts It's your hands I feel in the shower Your mouth in my bed Goddam I can't get you out my head! I can't love anyone else I never will I want so bad just to feel you I want to know the playful way you kiss I want to feel your fingertips Scribing poetry into my skin I want that erotic death Just get out of my head! I can't take this violation anymore Why did you have to come inside and do these things to me?" "But my lovely," I said "I don't even know your name" Could this be an ode to a Playstation 2? Have fun little one, the game's just for you That black demon's just sitting there That genie and that bottle Have a taste, go ahead Yeah, but...do you know what this shit does to me? Come on baby, feel yourself go numb Don't you want me? Don't you want to feel me in your throat? Driving you over the edge of pure excess Bringing to the surface all those fears Don't I just make you wanna fuck? So go on then, fuck yourself Just don't blame me I can't help it You know how good I look How good I taste You're addicted But you only get one Mornin' mirror Yeah, yeah I hate you too So who in the hell are you? Christ on a bender? Put the bottle down And let’s talk about this little God problem you have, shall we? Sure, God’s an astronaut Oz is over the rainbow And Midian’s where the monsters live At least, according to Clive But I don’t ever recall Jesus High from the pipe smoke Begging for a blowjob Or even thumbing through my landlady’s garbage Looking for masturbatory material As far as I know He doesn’t exist at all…oh, you agree? Never mind If you honestly think I believed you When you said that you loved me More than any other boy You must have been high Do you really think That I didn’t know about Jesse Or Jimmy Or Trent Or Darryl Or those other three? So I have a question, maybe two What are you smoking And why aren’t you sharing? Yeah, and this journal gets longer I feel 30 days removed And stripped of the beauty of my inner excess That sadistic nuance of blue That cares nothing for me And even less for you But I still have her memory Rolling naked in the wildflowers Making love in the rain Getting warm by a stranger’s fireplace After breaking into his cottage And eating all of his food Looking back over these words They’re so disjointed Rather like my thoughts as of late There may be a message here Something poignant Something I wanted to say I just needed to share these words In case they’re my last |