The cries of a frustrated Christian woman answered |
REPLY SPEAK LORD! CANT YOU HELP ME? I LAY AWAKE AT NIGHT AND CONTEMPLATE PAST LOVERS— OH SO MANY TO NAME—TO PLACE—TO DATE THE TIMES AND PLACES WE MET UP, HOOKED UP, GOT FED UP… THEN BROKE UP OH…ABBA FATHER. SPEAK LORD! HEAR MY CRY! SO TIRED OF BEING TIRED OF WAITING TIRED OF STALLING TIRED OF CALLING SO MYSTERIOUS IS YOUR REPLY YOUR WILL YOUR WAY SO SICK OF BEING SICK FROM WORRY SICK OF PAIN SICK OF CALLING STERN AND FIRM IS YOUR REPLY YOUR WILL YOUR WAY Yes Lord…not my will but yours…I always screw up when using mine Yes Lord…I’m faithful to you Jesus I’m trusting in you Lord IM ALSO FRUSTRATED! A quick recap on my prayers: “Calling for a man… I long for true love… Something meaningful…” WHAT’S UP WITH THESE ANSWERS?!?! I should RADIATE from X-Ray vision… My ears ring from meaningless chatter… And…why is he groping me? IT’S THE FIRST DATE!!! I thought I had been through enough. Yes Lord…no more than I can bear. I know I’ll gain from this pain That I carry like a hiker’s knapsack— So heavy, yet necessary. Yes Lord…I’ll accept Your reply… Your will… Your way… COME TO ME, ALL WHO ARE WEARY AND HEAVY-LADEN, AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. (Mathew 11:28) |