not a better man

she says its just a way to show me
im away too much
she says its another way
to say she needs more love
people all around me tell me
its still adultery
she says it wouldnt have to be
if i gave her what she needs

she says she can use me
because i havent got a clue
she says a stronger, better man
wouldnt let himself be used
people all around me tell me
its still mental abuse
she says i should wipe my tears
because theres nothing i can do

she says i should stay at home
after work and cook and clean
she says she'll be late again
and that should be just fine with me
people all around me tell me
its still hyprocricy
she says it doesnt matter
i dont have the guts to leave

and tonight she may be right
perhaps she's right tonight
perhaps a stronger better man wouldn't be afraid to fight
perhaps i could sit her down and tell her that im done
perhaps a stronger better man would have the strength to run
she's taken everything ive ever had inside of me
and tonight impulse is all i have left to set me free
tomorrow, tonight's horror will be cast in another light
but im solving all my problems when she gets home tonight

they say it's so weird
the way she dissappeared
they say its not surprising
she'd been acting odd for years
people all around me watch me
forcing out fake tears
they say im holding up ok
without her being here.

--conn