Grief

She waits;
A numbness fills her heart,
That suffocates her every part,
So she herself no longer knows;
What happens when; the way it goes
Round and round and then no more,
Until she can no longer draw,
A picture of that smiling face
Whose presence filled  that very place,

When everything was black and white;
No grey spaces, nothing to fight,
But now it all just seems to rush,
And fall and choke and die and crush
every dream that she once had,
Inside her mind nothing was bad
And everything that happened then;
Happened not to her not then,

She cried, she sobbed, she wept, she roared,
Until the tears they came no more,
And all was left of what remained;
A memory within her brain,
The promise that all life went on
Without that smile that touch that song
That seemed to make all things bright,
Not a matter of wrong and right;

That child the way she was before
And now she was no longer more.