Close Friends

We were close friends,
Though she did not know
The sleepless nights
With her on my mind or
The breathless moments
In my dreams of her
As I would see her face.

When she walked into a room,
My life was brightened
As though someone opened
The curtains and let the sun
Shine on my soul to show
That she was the beginning
And she was the end.

I would imagine
Her feelings were the same,
But maybe she couldn’t say.
This gave me a small glimmer
Of hope and courage
To talk with her and
Tell her how I feel.

I held my heart for her to take.
Heavily burdened with years
Of love that would not die,
It fell to the ground,
Broken and unwanted,
To be swept away
Like grains of sand.

The glimmer of hope is now gone.
Darkness surrounds me
Like a blanket-- and
In my dreams of her,
I no longer see her face
For the tears that are running
Through my mind.

I will try to pick up the pieces--
Put my heart back together
So I can get through this--
But the pieces don’t seem to fit.
I must patch this battered heart
The best I can, so one day we again
Can be close friends.

One day soon she will find
Someone who makes her feel
The way I do for her--
Then on her wedding day,
As close friends always do,
I’ll wish them a happy and wonderful life,
Then slowly walk away.