I Will Not Look Heartbreak In The Eyes

It could be a month of Monday nights in silence.
It could be my reflection, glaring off your eyelids.
I don't know much, but of one thing I am sure:
I will not look heartbreak in the eyes anymore.

Yes it's true I am no saint
and twice as much of you can be said the same.
And I am as certain as our evil is pure.
I will not look heartbreak in the eyes anymore.

You can continue to drag my name through the muck
but I will never blame you for my own dumb luck.
I may not play games enough to settle the score.
I will not look heartbreak in the eyes anymore.

A night of construction; a day to live in it.
One breath of destruction leads to a bounty of regret.
I kneel before you, humble and demure.
I will not look heartbreak in the eyes anymore.

The grandest of scales becomes my deepest debt,
for as long as I live, 'twill be longer lest I forget.
Your smile and touches are real and secure.
I will not look heartbreak in the eyes anymore.

Easy to come, and even easier to go.
It isn't a charade and my tears aren't for show.
Tell me when did my love become a revolving door?
I will not look heartbreak in the eyes anymore.

I'm not running; it's easy, you see.
My heart wasn't welcome in the best places to be.
I may never live up to what you thought you had in store.
I will not look heartbreak in the eyes anymore.

Maybe I'll be blessed with a life of Thanksgivings
or cursed by the mouths of unsatisfied cravings.
I don't know much, but of one thing I am sure:
I will not,
cannot,
dare not,
look heartbreak in the eyes
anymore.
No I won't
look heartbreak
in your eyes
anymore.