A place where drugs have taken me |
I want to say a million things but can't write one sentence that is true. I want to make this sound so profetic but it seems lost in the wind of confussion. At the time of clearity I struggle to find the truth that spills from my soul. I find it hard to digest the babble of a million liars. How sorrow grips me as I try to find the truth about me. A soul searching experiance that seems so hopless. I've begun a war with no end. I am my worst enemy but also my greatest savior. How perfectly disturbed that sounds. Today I feel like screaming so the whole world can feel the sickness that coarses through my veins. My sickness unfolds...... You stare in wonder at the madmans mystery, but the answers to your questions might sacrifice your innocence. You think your diagnosises can hold weight, but a sorry fool you are. No textbook do I fit in. How big your ego must be if you think you can release me from my tourment. Nothing inside those walls of education can prepare you from the viciousness of my insanity. Today you turn to the written rule"save them, all of them!" Ha ha I say. The truth of it is you must be as sick as any if you wish to get inside this mind of eternal madness. A joke you play on your own sanity. I move to the place that has always protected. It is the center of all chaos. It is the depths of hell, the deepest on earth, and it is where I reside as a champion of pain. On a sunny day you smile at God's blessings. On these days I push you to your death. I give you doubt where there is none. You give praise to your savior. I give you praise to your selfishness. How will you release the binds of your pain? You encourage the death of the man you never were. Smile at the tears the world provides as I give you the medicine that takes you nowhere. A guest you are in my dominion of deciet. Feel my power as you tremmble to your knees. I am absolute and forever. I am the eternity the world only dreams about. Your preachers warn of devilish deeds, but what do they know of it. A book is all they've ever seen. So I am here to guide you ias you abstain from truth I am here to take you away. Now come to the place you have endulged for so long. Come to the numb that is the safty you seek. I know your fears it is time to hide. Take this it will finish you. I am by your side. |