When One Goes

And they said

Are you leaving?
We just got started here
Are you leaving?
There's nothing more for me to see
I reply
With a certain
Hesitation
Born from the holes in my mind
The gaps for the synapse
Where the bridges fell apart

Hey where is my
Sight
Hey where is my
Foresight

There's a sad structure

Born from meddling with
The dangerous chemicals
In my brain

Courage is a two edged sword
It might cut you when it gives you strength
Ambition is like a waiting vulture
Waiting for you to falter in your step

I came to the end
Knowing that I never tried
And lost my way

There's a shipwreck on the sun
Begging to be looked upon
Where curiosity hurt me last
This time I'll go blind

And foresight means nothing
Without the mind and the eyes
To recognize where you'll fail

I'm not asking you not to try
I'm not asking you not to risk
I'm not asking you not to live
I'm just asking for you to understand
You don't need to be like me

Because I'm cynical and broken
There's only bends and cracks in my train tracks
And I can't ride them back

So just once
When there asking are you leaving
Please tell them no I'd like to stay
I've got to see what this is like
To understand
The merit of this night