Ramblings

There have been times that I have found myself so angry that I don't know whether to spit nails or just sit down and bawl. What could make me feel this way? I met my husband about 5 years ago, we dated and everything was going great, he was healthy, I of course had my health issues that was known from the beginning, we got engaged and stayed that way for a year, it was great, we worked together with our families and planned our wedding. After the wedding we had a good year, then one day he got sick and never got better. We've been going on with this for over 2 years. His doctors say more than likely it's Multiple Sclerosis. Okay fine I can deal with that, so can he. We would know how to work things if we just had a definate answer. Not one doctor will diagnose it. He has primary, a neurologist, a heart doctor, lung doctor and an alergist not mention spending a few days at the Mayo Clinic in Az. He has shooting headaches, his vision is disapating, most of the time just getting out of bed wears him out and he's done for the day but he still keeps going, this last relapse hit hard, his legs got affected this time, he couldn't even hardly move his legs. I don't give up on him, he doesn't give up we keep ticking right along standing by each other but I have to wonder what have we done to deserve for him to be sick and not know what it is? He's a great husband, a great father-I'm the 3rd wife, he has full custody of both kids and he raised them basically on his own, he works hard for his family every day of his life. We are okay if it's MS, people all around the world suffer from this disease, we just would love to know for sure. I know this was just a rant but i had to get it off my chest. Thanks for reading.