The pain you caused for me

Through all the scars and all the tears,
Through all this pain for all these years,
the heartbreaks
and meltdowns,
my heart is broken
not in two
but a million,

feels like you took them
and threw them into the river
(its so cold down in the water)
so deep,

do you think
you can bring an immitation of love,
make everything right?

you must have cracked your skull!
Nothing you do will make things right again!

Thanks to you,
my mind is a puzzle, missing pieces,
my heart is broken in places
where it could never be mended,

yet you still do not see
all the pain you caused
me, all the love I had
for you is now gone,

for you, my mother,must
be blind,
for you could never understand,
never see,
the pain you caused for me.