one tear

god no.
god please no.
no no no.
thats all i can think.
why god?
no.
not him.
he never did a thing.
never killed anyone.
never sinned.
so what god?
what did he do?
to deserve this.
im pinned in the car.
hes on the road.
i can see him.
through my window.
the rain drops distort my vision.
hes so still. so very still.
i pound on the window.
ignoring my pain.
what did i matter?
he was dead.
i had to get out of the car.
ignoring the blood,
ignoring the pain,
i bust the window.
and crawl out.
an action that should have killed me,
with the state i was in.
but i didnt matter.
the only thing that mattered in the world,
was laying in a pool of blood on the street.

i slowly make my way towards him.
maybe its in my face,
maybe my eyes,
but no one moves to stop me.
i needed him.

i can't move anymore.
i reach out my hand,
the rain washing away the blood,
and touch his cheek.
that was all i needed.
my strenghth returns.
and i pull myself to him,
and lay on my back next to him
i turn my face toward his.
so peaceful.
so...good.
he didn't deserve this
i take his hand.
and the rain falls down upon us as we lie together,
and a drop rolls down my face.
but this one is warm.
just one tear.
that was all i cried for him.
my pain was to great for tears.
i turn his head towards mine.
and close my eyes.
and one last time i speak to god
but not asking why.
god,please
i have nothing left
please god.
take me to.

as we lay there side by side,
holding hands.
facing each other,
the rain falling down upon us,
god took us.

together.