A poem about the feelings at the ending of a relationship |
Beyond Hope and Despair I’ll still love you, she said, shakily Life stretches into our future to the end And brings all my remaining emotion with it Aye, I reply but bound forever, With no closeness, no communication No physical connection, save pain or loneliness I receive only what is measured, doled out by you Like water rationed in the desert Never enough……ever And is this love, then, or pity and desperation Holding to what never was, is not and never will be Where, Oh where is the passion, The touch that renews Or at least recycles us Today or tomorrow Or forever Or never Words scatter like autumn leaves before the storm Blown about by the ill winds of us both To be broken at last then, discarded like refuse Along with my last human emotion, Hope On the far side of hope, it is said Lies despair, that most insidious serpent of all Slayer of the only thing left Bringing the darkness swiftly to a close Waiting to snuff the last flicker of humanity in me With utter finality I am stripped then to the naked layer of my essence What else is there, I am devoid of all I feel no pain, no physical sickness Save what I inflict on myself In order that I feel anything, something Or nothing And it is done then, sheer misery rules No hope, not even despair I am alone…….. Darkness holds sway forever Binding me firmly in place My screams echo even inside my bones But there is no sound, save that in my twisted synapses, Burning the ashen cinders of my soul with icy black flame Nothing Nothing Nothing Nothing Nothing Forever |