My experience with life and the feeling of never being helped by those I love. |
You can give and give just to please somone asking only for their happiness in return and nothing more, Instead you find your soul drowning in your own salty tears often, Always searching in an endless search just to feel yourself suffer all the way down into your already hurt core, One by one you begin to thumb through your effort of tries, Stradigies of failure...a world of disappointment replay over in your mind To simply mend someone's heart, you scream... yet no one hears your cries One by one you tally up the score, Not suprised at all of the outcome Once agian you lost the battle of this never ending war, You feel so used, betrayed, beatened and bruised, For what a little acknowledgement and still they refused, As days go by, Slowly your body begins to shutdown ,you find yourself asking "what for" Inflicting much pain ...you ask yourslf why, You take a big breath then let out a sigh, the pain you endure. You start to think then imagine... While lying in your own blood people could see you and nobody stops not even a glance,they'd all leave you there cold and helpless, You can feel your body weakin as it grows cold, giving in your hopeless. "Never a dull moment", you whisper to your soul softly, as you watch it roam endlessly, Then silence once again falls, You close your eyes and await the next day where you will try again ever so kindly, In hopes of, that one day... somebody... |